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supper to make you 'slim' :p

2012-01-29T23:54:00.004Z

It's already ten past midnight. And I am so full with the 'calorieful' midnight supper I just had. I swear I won't weigh myself in a couple of days.

I should actually be already in bed by now. But since my only activity these days is lazing around, I sleep whenever I want, and pretty much wake up whenever I want. And so I slept at 7 something after Isya' prayer (Isya time is before 7) this evening, then woke up hungry at 11 o'clock. I took a quick shower to freshen up, and went to the kitchen to get something to eat.

I found nothing except half loaf of bread. The dull bread was not exciting enough. So I thought, I'd go for something richer (definitely with calories) like Nigella Lawson's Doughnut French Toast (ala, kalau macam kite punye roti celup telur tu, then salutkan dengan gula). Those went of course, with a cup of coffee.

That supper treat resulted in me being not only full, but wide awake. Let's just say I am 100% confident I will finish the James Patterson's 7th Heaven by 6 in the morning... what a way of life ey.

(This was taken when I was in a cafe yesterday killing time before going for my part-time job)

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school sweet school

2011-08-24T23:16:00.003+01:00

It is 11.20 pm and I am still at school. Believe me, being alone in a huge building is not fun. Walking along the hallway to get some coffee from the vending machine is even creepier. I have no choice. Really need to hand in another chapter this Friday. It has been dragging for so long. I can't even remember when was the original deadline.

I miss my home, my bed. Like really badly. Can you imagine how home-type I am? It has not even been twenty four hours since I left home. And it's not like I have a husband at home waiting for me (awww.. ). Ahahaha.

Owh and also, I only had (instant) noodle for fast-breaking. Padan muka kau, buat lagi keje last minute.

pc crashing is a nightmare

2011-08-23T13:59:00.005+01:00

It has been so long since I last wrote. Well, considered long for a blogger. But I am not a consistent blogger, so it is fine. Besides, I don't think anyone cares.. haha.

Last week, my pc crashed. I was freaking out as all my data and written stuff were in there. To make it worse, I had not been backing up the data since a month before the crash. Just imagine, if I lost all of them, I would lose a month worth of work. But thankfully, John (the IT technician) saved my life. Pheww~

Since then, I do the back-up every day. Lesson learnt.

Today was just another day. It is not that exciting anymore. Friends left (home for good) and some are leaving. Luckily I still have my housemate, kak Shidah.

I need to leave too. Missing my family badly. I really hope I can finish this phd as soon as possible. No. Actually, I desperately need to finish. :p

Eid this year will most probably be celebrated in lab, ..or office, ..or library, ...or in a messed up house unpacking boxes. Yup. We will be moving in to a new house (smaller) on the day before Eid. Exciting huh?

spring comes back, and here are some updates..

2011-03-21T14:56:00.008Z

Spring is in the air, flowers are blooming and the air is not too cold any more hence the gloomy misty days are slowly transferring to more colourful and cheerful days. No 5-6 layers of God-knows-what clothes any more, although I still could not afford wearing just one thin layer, but hey.. what a relief. ;)

My days have been sometimes hectic sometimes leisurely as usual. But the level of stress has been fluctuating crazily. Clock is ticking, I am getting old. Deadlines are approaching thus everything needs to be done needs to be done. Argghhh!

one of the sleepless nights in the library

My biological clock is completely messed up. I could sleep as long as 12 hours, or as short as 2 hours, or not sleeping at all. Some days I work crazily and some days I just don't do anything. I am very well aware that this is one bad way of organising life. In fact, it is not even one inch closer to organising. I know.

another sleepless night in my office

Apart from all depressing situations of mine, these are some events I really look forward to:

1. My parents are visiting this coming April 21st. Seriously can't wait!!!!!!!!

2. Owh and some times early April, Magec is coming to London and we're going to meet. Yeayy!!

3. My housemates and I are going for a trip to Germany, and then Turkey. End of April. Although we are all in tight budget, we are all tak-sedar-diri nak jalan2 jugak. ahaha..

4. My sister is getting married (don't ask when am I going to) in most probably November. Tak sabar nak jadi tuan rumah. :D

And besides all the exciting stuff, these are the nightmares:

1. The KPT allowance is ending in June. I will be runn

ing out of money. On supervision meeting last week, Bob asked me (knowing the situation), "what happens in June?" which then I answered, "I will be begging for food". No, that won't happen (hopefully).. haha.

2. I still have some experimental parts which include about 10 case studies to be finished before I can fully concentrate in writing up. But I hope I could finish this within a week (boleh la sgt?). Well perhaps with a sleepless week, it is possible. (Boleh ke kau x tidur2 kalau hari2 pun overslept? duhh)

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And this one, is the latest picture of me and kak Shidah. This was last Saturday at the MNight (Malaysian Night). I know, I know that I am getting wider. I blame the workload that always demand snacking activities. Definitely not my fault! :p

Okaylah kawan2 (bajet macam ramai je baca kan), till we meet again. ;)

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beautiful night

2010-12-04T02:16:00.004Z

Heavy snow hit us again...

in front of my house

our backyard

Nite nite everyone! *hugs*

kerja gila yang sedap

2010-12-02T12:49:00.003Z

Saya telah membuat kerja gila. Membuat ABC daripada snow. Sedapppppppp sehh.. :D

last minute, clumsy, careless - a complete package of me

2010-12-01T21:09:00.006Z

Today was bitterly cold, and today hasn't been my day. Not at all.

My student visa will expire on 31 Dec this year. Means in 30 days. Applying for a visa extension here in the UK is something that you won't fancy doing. Nobody would, I think. It consumes your time and your money,also cause you hassles and headache.

Two of the very important documents that I need for the application are the financial affidavit from my sponsor (KPT) which has been posted to me last Friday by KPT but has not arrived ever since, and also ATAS (Academic Approval Technology Scheme) clearance certificate, that I have to apply first by completing the ATAS form, which I have, and then need to be submitted, which I did today. Mind you, it takes up to 4 weeks in order to be granted this ATAS crap. (I heard some people got it within 2 weeks, so I desperately hope that I got mine in not more than 2 weeks too).

Now that I have submitted the ATAS application form, I thought it is a relief as I now just have to wait for the certificate before then I could proceed to submitting my visa application. Unfortunately it was not as easy as I thought it would be. Few hours back, when talking with my housemate (Kak Shidah) only then I realised that I did two mistakes in filling up the form.

First, there was a section asking for my previous granted ATAS certificate and the question where I did wrong was "The date you applied for your previous ATAS certificate". Then I thought, what the heck is this question? Why not just ask for the date the certificate was given instead of the date I applied? So with all the confusion, I went through my old emails, and found these few emails about this ATAS business. I couldn't find any email that I sent for the purpose of applying ATAS. So stupidly, I made a guess. Yes, a guess. So I checked the certificate, then I thought, it must had been few days before I got the certificate. And so it went with the 'brilliantly' guessed date.

Then the second mistake was of the "Referees" part. It needs two referees and I put both my supervisors here as referees without any idea that one of the referees has to be from the country of origin, ie Malaysia. So the form was submitted with these two stupid mistakes and there's no way that I could correct any of them.

To make things worse, the last date that I could submit my visa application through the university International Office is 15th Dec, and the International Office will open again at 4th January 2011 (dorg ni xmas mmg sakan, sama la mcm org Malaysia beraya) which means if I am refused the ATAS clearance certificate, I will have no time at all to apply a new one, hence there's a big potential of being refused the visa as well due to not providing complete supporting documents along with visa application form. And if I fail in the visa application, I have to apply another one which I am not happy to do because each application cost me 360 pound sterling (RM 1800).

Double pats on your shoulder, dear Zaifa. What a super excellent job you have done.

And the PhD has also got its way. Too many things to do with too little time. Research sometimes excites me though. Finding new things does cheer me up every time, and quite often too, I have a moment of "yeah I think I'm a genius" (haha :p ) But then, you know, the more you find, the more clueluess you become, hence the need to dig in more and more. The problem is, when do you stop digging? If you stop now, you will not know more., if you never stop, then your PhD will never end.

There have been seven emails from Bob since yesterday. And I have replied none. Seven emails, each about different things (papers, experiments, comments bla bla bla). Now with all this messed up visa stuff, then with my supervisor's emails, I am tensed. Really really tensed.

Today hasn't been my day. But thanks for being there...

Note: The snowy scenery pictures were taken using my phone on my way back home from school. Not a good quality, but worth a share.. ;)

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let it snow

2010-12-01T00:14:00.004Z

A view from my bedroom window - captured last night

So here the winter comes..

Watching the snow falling from the sky always give me an indescribably amazing feeling. It's just so beautiful. Suddenly the (my) world seems so perfect.

A little too much exaggerated? I thought so.

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sore throat + cough + runny nose

2010-10-20T14:09:00.002+01:00

I went to bed at 11 last night. Time now is 2 pm, and i am still in bed. Obviously la belum mandi.

There's this time where lots of people got sick and it is this time of the year, where the university term has just begun, and students from all over the world came back including freshies. So I guess these 'internationally originated' viruses are what make me sick now.

Or simply the weather. Owh.. that makes sense too. It is still autumn but max temperature for today is 9 deg celsius, plus the possibility to drop to sub zeros at night. I don't even wanna think what the coming-soon winter will bring us.

Might as well because of the pressure. Erkk saya stressed kah? Ahahaa..

Sumpah. Tak under pressure pun.

Okaylah, saya mahu pegi mandi sekarang.

lopesku..

2010-08-25T00:21:00.005+01:00

Last Friday I made my first attempt on this kuih lopes untuk berbuka puasa. Resepinya, dahtentu disonglap dpd internet saje.. hehe. Ni sesaja nak menunjuk2 (kasi chance la pls) la kiranya, walaupun rupa x berapa nak cantik, tp rasa dia sedapppp.. :D

Dah terlanjur bereksen2 dgn kuih lopes ni, sy nak wish sekali selamat beribadah di bulan Ramadhan untuk semua kawan2, semoga kita semua mendapat keampunan Allah S.W.T *hugs*

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KENAPA YAHUDI BIJAK

2010-08-24T15:42:00.004+01:00

I found this somewhere in facebook. I thought it's worth a read. Let's all change for better future generation.. ;)

SATU MUHASABAH ; Kenapa Yahudi Bijak

by Danish Irfan on Monday, August 23, 2010 at 4:08am

Setelah berada 3 tahun di Israel kerana menjalani housemanship dibeberapa hospital disana, ada beberapa perkara yang menarik dapat saya perhatikan untuk dijadikan tesis ini, iaitu "Mengapa Yahudi Bijak?". Memang tidak dapat dinafikan ramai cendikiawan berbangsa Yahudi, dari segala bidang, Engineering, musik, saintis dan yang paling hebat ialah bidang perniagaan, dimana ia memang paling tersohor. Hampir 70% perniagaan di dunia dikuasai oleh kaum Yahudi, dari kosmetik, pakaian, pemakanan, senjata, perhotelan, perfileman di Hollywood dan sebagainya.

Ketika tahun kedua, akhir bulan December 1980 dan sedang saya menghitung hari untuk pulang ke California saya terfikir apakah sebabnya kaum Yahudi begitu pintar? Kenapa tuhan memberi kelebihan kepada mereka? Apakah ini suatu kebetulan? Atau olah manusia sendiri? Adakah bijak boleh dijana? Seperti kilang pengeluaran? Maka saya pon tergerak membuat tesis untuk Phd saya, disamping kebaikan untuk umat sejagat dan dapat hidup secara harmoni. Untuk pengetahuan anda tesis yang saya lakukan ini mengambil masa hampir lapan tahun, ini kerana untuk mengumpulkan data-data yang setepat mungkin. Antara data-data yang saya kumpulkan ialah pemakanan, adat resam, ugama, persiapan awal untuk melahirkan zuriat dan sebagainya dan data data tadi saya cuba bandingkan dengan bangsa dan kaum kaum lain.

Marilah kita mulakan dengan persiapan awal melahirkan zuriat. Di Israel, setelah mengetahui yang sang ibu sedang mengandung, pertama kali saya perhatikan ialah, sang ibu akan sering menyanyi dan bermain piano dan si ibu dan bapa akan membeli buku metamatik dan menyelesaikan masalah metamatik bersama suami, saya sungguh hairan kerana teman saya yang mengandung sering membawa buku metamatik dan bertanya kepada saya beberapa soalan yang beliau tak dapat menyelesaikanya, oleh kerana saya memang minat tentang metamatik, tentu saja dengan senang saya bantu beliau. Saya bertanya kepada beliau, adakah ini untuk anak kamu? Beliau menjawab, "ia, ini untuk anak saya yang masih didalam kandungan, saya sedang melatih otak beliau, semuga ia menjadi genius apabila dewasa kelak" Perkara ini membuat saya tertarik untuk mengikut perkembangan beliau seterusnya. Berbalik kepada metamatik tadi, tanpa merasa jenoh beliau membuat latihan metamatik sehingga beliau melahirkan anak.

Seperkara lagi yang saya perhatikan ialah pemakanan beliau, sejak awal mengandung beliau gemar sekali memakan kacang badam dan korma bersama susu, dan untuk tengah hari makan utama beliau ialah roti dan ikan tanpa kepala bersama salad yang digaul dengan badam dan berbagai jenis kekacang, menurut beliau daging ikan sungguh baik untuk perkembangan otak dan kepala ikan mengandungi kimia yang tidak baik yang dapat merosakkan pengembangan dan penumbuhan otak anak didalam kandungan. menurut beliau ini adalah adat orang orang yahudi ketika mengandung dan ianya menjadi semacam kewajipan untuk ibu ibu yang sedang mengandung mengambil pil minyak ikan.

Ketika saya diundang untuk makan malam bersama orang orang Yahudi, perkara pertama yang saya perhatikan ialah menu mereka.. Setiap undangan yg sama perhatikan ialah mereka gemar sekali memakan ikan (hanya isi atau fillet) dan biasanya daging tidak akan ada bersama dimeja jika ada ikan, menurut mereka, campuran daging dan ikan tak elok dimakan bersama. Salad dan kacang adalah suatu kemestian, terutama badam.

Seperkara yang pelik ialah mereka akan memakan buah buahan dahulu sebelum memakan hidangan utama. Jangan terperanjat jika anda diundang kerumah Yahudi anda akan dihidangkan buah buahan dahulu. Menurut mereka, dengan memakan hidangan kabohidrat (nasi atau roti) dahulu kemudian buah buahan, ini akan menyebabkan kita merasa ngantuk dan lemah dan payah untuk memahami pelajaran disekolah.

Di Israel, merokok adalah taboo, apabila anda diundang makan dirumah Yahudi, jangan sekali kali merokok, dan tanpa malu mereka akan menyuruh anda keluar dari rumah mereka dam merokok diluar rumah mereka. Menurut saintis di Universiti Israel , siasatan menunjukkan nikotin dapat merosakkan sel utama pada otak manusia dan akan melekat pada genes, ini bermakna keturunan perokok bakal membawa generasi yg cacat otak ( bodoh atau lembab). Suatu penemuan yg dahsyat ditemui oleh saintis yg mendalami bidang genes dan DNA. Para perokok harap ambil perhatian. (Ironi nya, pemilik pengeluar rokok terbesar adalah ...... tekalah sendiri..!)

Perhatian saya selanjutnya ialah melawati tadika mereka, Pemakanan anak anak tadi cukup dikawal, makanan awal ialah buah buahan bersama kacang badam, diikuti dengan menelan pil minyak ikan (code oil lever) Didalam pengamatan saya, kanak Yahudi sungguh bijak dan rata rata mereka memahami 3 bahasa iaitu Hebrew, Arab dan Inggeris dan sedari awal lagi mereka telah dilatih bermain piano dan violin, ini adalah suatu kewajipan. Menurut mereka bermain musik dan memahami nota notanya dapat meningkatkan lagi IQ kanak kanak dan sudah tentu bakal menjadikan budak itu bijak. Ini menurut saintis Yahudi, gegaran musik dapat stimulate (semacam senaman untuk otak) maka itu terdapat ramai sekali genius musik terdiri dari kaum Yahudi.

Seterusnya ke darjah 1 hingga 6, anak anak Yahudi akan diajar matematik berkonsepkan perniagaan dan pelajaran sains amatlah diberi keutamaan. Di dalam perhatian peribadi saya, perbandingan dengan anak anak di California, ianya jauh berbeza tentang IQ dan boleh saya katakan 6 tahun kebelakang!! !. Segala pelajaran akan dengan mudah di tangkap oleh anak Yahudi. Selain dari pelajaran tadi sukan juga menjadi kewajipan bagi mereka dan sukan yg diberi keutamaan ialah memanah, menembak dan berlari, menurut teman saya ini, memanah dan menembak dapat melatih otak mem fokus sesuatu perkara disamping mempermudahkan persiapan untuk perhidmatan negara.

Selanjutnya pemerhatian saya menuju ke sekolah tinggi (menengah) di sini murid-murid ditekan dengan pelajaran sains dan mereka digalakkan mencipta produk. Segala projek mereka walaupon kadangkala kelihatannya lucu dan mengarut, tetap diteliti dengan serius apatah lagi ianya berupa senjata, perubatan dan engineering, idea itu akan dibawa ke institute tinggi di Politeknik dan Universiti.

Satu lagi yang diberi keutamaan ialah fakulti perniagaan. Saya sungguh terperanjat melihat mereka begitu agresif dan seriusnya mereka tentang perniagaan. Di akhir tahun di universiti, para penuntut dibidang niaga dikehendaki melakukan projek dan mempraktikkannya dan anda hanya akan lulus jika kumpulan anda (10 pelajar setiap kumpulan) dapat keuntungan sebanyak $US1juta! Anda terperanjat? Itulah kenyataan, dengan rangkaian seluruh dunia dan ditaja sepenuhnya oleh syarikat milik Yahudi, maka tidak hairanlah mereka dapat menguasai ½ perniagaan didunia! Siapakah yg mencipta design Levis yg terkini? Ianya dicipta di Universiti Israel oleh fakulti bisnes dan fesyen.

Pernahkah anda melihat cara orang Yahudi melakukan ibadah mereka? Salah satu caranya ialah dengan menggoyangkan kepala mereka, menurut mereka ini dapat mengaktifkan otak mereka dan menambahkan oksijan dikepala, banyak ugama lain di Timur Tengah, seperti Islam juga ada menyuruh umatnya menunduk atau menggoyangkan kepala, ini guna dapat mensimulasikan otak kita supaya bertambah aktif. Lihat orang orang Jepun, mereka sering menunduk-nundukkan kepala dan ianya sebagai adat. Ramai orang orang Jepun yg pandai? Adakah ianya sebagai kebetulan? Kegemaran mereka ialah sushi (ikan mentah). Adakah ini kebetulan? Fikirkanlah!

Berpusat di New York, Dewan Perniagaan Yahudi bersedia membantu mereka yg berminat untuk melakukan bisnes (sudah tentu untuk Yahudi sahaja). Jika mereka ada idea yg bernas, jawatan kuasa akan memberi pinjaman tanpa faedah dan pentadbir dari jawatan kuasa tadi akan bekerjasama dengan anda untuk memastikan yg perniagaan mereka menurut landasan yg betul. Maka itu lahirlah Starbuck, Dell, Coca cola, DKNY, Oracle, Perfileman di Hollywood, Levis, Dunkin Donut dan ada beratus kedai ternama dibawah naungan dewan perniagaan Yahudi di New York. Graduan Yahudi dari fakulti perubatan New York akan disarankan untuk mendaftar dipersatuan ini dan digalakkan memulakan klinik mereka sendiri dengan bantuan wang tanpa faedah. Barulah saya tahu mengapa hospital di New York dan California sentiasa kekurangan doktor pakar.

Kesimpulanya, pada teori saya, melahirkan anak dan keturunan yg bijak boleh dilaksanakan dan tentunya bukan semalaman, ianya memerlukan masa, beberapa generasi mungkin? Persiapan awal adalah ketika sang ibu mengandung, galakkanlah si ibu melakukan latihan matematik yg mudah tetapi konsisten di samping mendengar musik klasik (bagi umat Islam lebih baik diperdengarkan bacaan ayat suci Al-Quran - admin). Seterusnya ubahlah cara pemakanan, makanlah makanan yg elok dan berkhasiat yg baik untuk otak, menghayati musik sejak kecil adalah baik sekali untuk pertumbuhan otak kanak kanak, dengan bermain piano dan violin sudah tentu dapat melatih anak anak mencerdaskan otak mereka. Demikian juga sukan yg memerlukan kosentrasi yg tinggi, seperti memanah, bola keranjang, dart dan menembak. Merokok menjanjikan generasi yg moron (goblok) dan sudah tentu genes bodoh akan mengikut ke generasi si perokok. Lawatan saya ke Singapore pada tahun 2005 amat memeranjatkan sekali! Di sini perokok seperti di anak tirikan dan begitu susah sekali untuk perokok, dan anda tahu berapa harga sekotak rokok? US$ 7 !!! ini bersamaan perbelanjaan sehari untuk makan anda!! Saya puji sekali sikap pemerintah Singapore dan menakjubkan sekali!!! Dan seperti Israel ianya begitu taboo dan cara pentadbiran dan segi pembelajaran mereka hampir serupa dengan Israel , maka itu saya lihat banyak institusi pelajaran mereka bertaraf dunia walaupun hakikatnya negeri Singapore hanyalah sebuah pulau sebesar Manhattan !!

Anda mungkin musykil, benarkah merokok dapat melahirkan generasi goblok? Saya telah menemui beberapa bukti menyokong teori ini. Lihat saja Indonesia, jika anda ke Jakarta, di mana saja anda berada, dari restoran, teater, kebun bunga hingga ke muzium, hidung anda akan segera terbau asap rokok! Dan harga rokok? Cuma US$ .70cts !!! dan hasilnya? Dengan penduduknya berjumlah jutaan orang berapa banyakkah universiti terdapat di sana? Hasil apakah yg dapat dibanggakan? Teknologi? Jauh sekali. Adakah mereka dapat berbahasa selain dari bahasa mereka sendiri? Mengapa mereka begitu sukar sekali menguasai bahasa Inggeris? Ditangga berapakah kedudukan mereka di pertandingan matematik sedunia? Adakah ini bukan akibat merokok? Anda fikirlah sendiri.

Di tesis saya ini, saya tidak akan menimbulkan soal ugama atau bangsa, adakah Yahudi itu zalim sehingga diusir dari semenjak zaman Paraoh hingga ke Hitler, bagi saya itu isu politik dan survival, yg ingin saya ketengahkan ialah, mampukah kita dapat melahirkan generasi yg bijak seperti Yahudi? Jawapannya ialah mungkin dan tidak mustahil dan ianya memerlukan perubahan, dari segi pemakanan dan cara mendididik anak dan saya kira hanya memerlukan 3 generasi sahaja. Ini dapat saya lihat sendiri tentang cucu saya, ini setelah saya mengajar anak saya melalui program yg telah saya nyatakan di atas tadi, pada umur 9 tahun (cucu saya) dia dapat menulis esei sepanjang 5 mukasurat penuh. Eseinya hanyalah mengenai 'Mengapa saya gemarkan tomato! ' Selamat sejahtera dan semuga kita dapat melahirkan manusia yg bijak dan bersifat mulia untuk kebaikan manusia sejagat tanpa mengenal batasan bangsa.

Penulis : Dr. Stephen Carr Leon

Di alih bahasa oleh :Adibah Mohd NoorMatriculation Lecturer, Department of SciencesUIA Matriculation Centre, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

(Bukan menyokong Hitler, tetapi hanya untuk membuka minda kita - Admin)

morph any face you like!

2010-07-14T15:36:00.003+01:00

Found this from somebody's blog when blogwalking yesterday. What a fun to try! (I tried my face with some popular figures.. ahahaha)

http://www.morphthing.com/

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Learn, or be an ignorant. Choose only one please?

2010-07-13T01:04:00.006+01:00

Since my last post was in spring, and the one before that was in winter, it seems that I am a seasonal blog writer eh? ;)

UK has been enjoying sunny spell for quite a while, but then what can you expect in this unpredicted-weather country. Yesterday and today appear to be gloomy rainy days. Sunny or rainy, I am grateful either way.

Also experiencing changes, are things and people that surround me. Positive changes are always welcomed, but negative ones are also inevitable. I see success, I also see failure. As in this academic world, I witness not only tears of happiness and satisfaction, but also tears of grief. Taking both into accounts, we can learn a lot. Mind you, 'we can' does not always mean that 'we do'. Because sometimes, people tend to deny or at least ignore the lessons, or might as well they do not really have the time to learn as they are too busy pointing finger at others.

I should get back to work now.. (owh no, my supervisor is knocking the door.. haha..)

hey hey i miss my bed

2010-04-23T15:25:00.004+01:00

It's been almost 3 months (or more?) since my last entry. Firstly, maaflah janji untuk mengupload gambar2 winter terpaksa tidak ditunaikan.. sebab rasanya dah tak relevant lagi as spring is now in the air..

Nothing much to write really. It's 6.17 am and I am still in the lab and haven't yet slept since yesterday. I had a can of Red Bull and that made me stay awake. Now I am having another cup of coffee to sustain the caffeine.. :p I know it's bad, but I am desperate. I have to make sure that I finish both poster and presentation slide for EGU conference in Vienna this Friday. We (Bob and me) are leaving tomorrow and I have to get this poster printed by today. Owh, and also not to forget that I'll have a meeting with Bob and Chris at 9.30 am.. that'll be 3 hours from now.

I will survive.. I hope I will.

The surprise birthday party..

2010-01-10T19:52:00.002Z

Semalam ialah hari lahir sy yang ke 27.. macam yg dh diberitahu pd post yg lepas. Ye, mengaku sajelah saya dah tak begitu muda.. ahahahah. Tapi tak bermakna sudah 27 takde orang nak buatkan surprise party.. :p Apapun, syukur pd Allah sebab masih lagi diberi kesempatan untuk bernafas di muka bumi Allah ni..

Sgt terharu dengan my housemates yg arranged kan makan2 untuk my birthday. Terima kasih sangat2 kepada Kak Shidah n Kak Yati dan semua tetamu2 yang datang. I had such a great time yesterday. Terasa sangat disayangi.. hihiii...

Thanks too to those yg wished me happy birthday, either by phones, text, cards etc. Termasuk juga kepada sesiapa yang sanggup tak cukup tidur untuk wish sy.. I really appreciate it.. :)

Dan yang paling penting, terima kasih yg berjuta2 lemon to mama dan ayah yang disayangi because without you, I will never be what I am now. Dan adik2 (termasuk Adik) yang disayangi, thanks for making my life so meaningful..

Owh ye, harini tak sempat nak share gambar2 waktu snow as promised in my previous entry. Esok ialah hari untuk my second year viva. Agak menakutkan. Harap2 semua baik2 saja, Ameeen..

Tetamu-tetamu yang datang..

Ini sumpahhh sangat sweettt okayy.. :D

Ada handmade cards lagi daripada Nurul and Ikhwan (anak kak ros)..

and the opened presents... Fazley n Shah pnye hadiah tak dapat dipaparkan kerana bakal menimbulkan kontroversi murahan.. hahaha..

my white birthday..

2010-01-09T19:02:00.005Z

Notts has been covered by white blanket these few days, the thickest was yesterday and this morning. As I am 27 today, I will always remember that I have a white birthday this year... hehe. Owh ye, I'll share the pictures of the snowy Notts in my next post..

P/s : Thanks to both kak Shidah and kak yatii.. you guys rockkk! (To kak shidah, sy sgt suka frame itu.. cantikkk bangettt :D )

bitterly cold..

2009-12-18T14:35:00.001Z

It is so damn cold and I am no way near to finishing my works. Sounds negative? I know..

kegiatan mengumpul calorie

2009-11-10T00:48:00.004Z

Dua tiga hari ni saya makan sangatlah tidak teratur. Tak teratur tu bukan bermakna makan sikit ye, jangan salah sangka okeh.. haha. I've been skipping breakfast sebab bangun tidur pada waktu yang breakfast sudah tidak lagi relevan (haruss direjek oleh mak mertua ni perangai mcm ni), taking lunch at almost 3 everyday, having late dinner, and constantly snacking between those meals. Haa lagi satu, dah malam2 buta pukul 11-12 boleh lagi makan eskem & cheesecake tanpa rasa bersalah. Kalau berterusan macam ni memang berpotensi untuk melebar dengan lebih giat nampaknya, especially because of the constant snacking habbit. Ada2 je la yg nak dimasukkan dalam mulut.. kek la, crisp la, coklat la, biskut la.. nasib je pen/pensel/highlighter takleh tuka jadi candy ke apa ke kan..

Siang tadi my ex colleague Vera, came to submit her thesis. How I wish I were submitting mine... haha. Itu sangatlah tidak mengukur baju di badan sendiri kan.. research ntah kemana2 peginye, ada hati nak hantar sama taimmmm (time) dengan org yg dah 4 tahun bertapa kt sini. Tolong sedar diri ye cik efa.

So disebabkan Vera dah berjaya submit thesis dia, Bob dengan bermurah hati treated us lunch. Lepas lunch dan bergosip2 dengan jayanya, we had chit-chat over coffee and cakes. Sangatlah seronok kan berborak2 dan bergosip. Tak payah fikir dengan bersusah payah.

Ini memang namanya sehati sejiwa dengan supervisor.. baju siap match okayy.. haha!

Disebabkan dah lepas sorang lg student dia, lepas ni nampaknya encik Bob yang comel itu akan terlebih2 concern lagi lah kepada sorg studentnye yg kureng rajin ini. Ohohoho.. cepatlahh abess.. Ameeen.

I lost my dearly loved aunt.. how sad... :(

2009-10-23T15:33:00.003+01:00

Two days back, I heard from my father that my aunt (we called her 'Induk') was in coma. I was so shocked, not knowing the reason and had no idea if she had any serious illness before. Apparently she did not have any, apart from her high blood pressure. She always appeared to be very energetic, fit, happy go lucky and full of enthusiasm.

I then prayed to Allah to spare her life as we were all too afraid to lose her. Little did we know that Allah loves her more. Last night I called my father to ask about Induk's condition, then only I knew that she had gone the day before and had been buried. And I was totally stunned, refusing to believe what my ears had just caught. Then I heard my father sobbed and that was the moment when I realised it was not a dream.

I burst in to tears. My heart broke, I was sooo devastated, and I sympathised with my cousin (her only daughter named Zati), Pak Induk, and nenek. And my family ourselves, we love Induk so much. To my father, Induk was the one he loved the most among all my other aunts and uncles. She was the only aunt that me and my siblings loved so dearly, and we'll always do.

It is still fresh in my mind when we talked through the phone a day before hari raya.

"Induk masak apa raya? Mesti bestttttt kannnnn"

"Induk masak sikit2 je la kakngah.. ala kadar jee.."

"Elehh ye2 je Induk ni..saje la tu taknak kasi org tauuuu"

"Betulll.. induk tunggu kakngah balik la, nanti Induk masak banyak2, kite makan sama2 okay?"

"Okayy.. sayangg lahh Induk camni.."

And that would never ever gonna happen..

Since I heard the news, I could not help myself but crying. The loss left a big impact on me. My mind kept thinking about her.. she was so young when she left, not even 40. What would it feel like to be in Zati's position... where one day you wake up and you realise that your mother has left you. That must be too painful.

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah ibu dan ayahku untuk masa yang panjang... kerana aku masih lagi tidak kuat untuk kehilangan mereka..

Thanks for lending me your shoulder when I cried.......

Mama, I am sick.. :(

2009-10-18T23:27:00.003+01:00

Tak tau dah berapa belas jam saya tidur. Sejak pagi, tengahari, petang, dan sekarang malam. Sangat tak suka time2 demam macam ni. How I wish my mum is here.. :(

Esok ada meeting. Supervision meeting bersama Bob yg comel itu la. But I think I couldn't make it for tomorrow. Sebab paling utama, batuk yg teruk until I can barely speak properly without coughing. Itu sangatlahhhhh tak selesa okay! Rasanya tekak ni dah luka dah kot. Kasihan tekakkuu.. Dan lg satu, I do not want to come and spread the germs to other people.. (harap2 my housemates tak terjangkit).

Nak cancel meeting ke takk.. cancel ke tak... cancel ke takk... cancel ke takkk..

Hi Bob,

I am sorry that we have to cancel our meeting tomorrow. I have a fever, a runny nose and have been constantly coughing since Friday. The cough is terrible and gets worse every time I try to speak, which is very uncomfortable and doesn't get any better until now. I will see you when I get better.

Sorry!

Hmm okay, cancel!

p/s kpd yg berkenaan : mlm ini sy sudah mkn ubat.. :p

my cookies

2009-10-06T01:11:00.004+01:00

Last Saturday I tried this recipe from youtube, by Nigella Lawson. Saje2 nk try buat cookies. Sangat sedap lah jugak. This is the video if u guys wanna try!

And ini dia cookies sebelum dimasukkan ke dalam oven.. jangan komen saiz yang tidak sama itu okeh.. :p

Ini yg dah siap.. yummy!! Kaler dia sangat gelap sbb I used dark choc for both the choc bar and choc chip..

ucapan yang terlewat - slamat hari raya!

2009-10-03T22:02:00.005+01:00

Ni dah x tau raya keberapa dah ni, baru nak wish slamat hari raya kan.. haha. Slamat hari raya kawan2, korang semua raya dah best2 dah.. lemang, ketupat, rendang, kuih raya, dodol.. iskk.. sgt jeles okeh. Tapi raya aku aritu ok jugak la, ada rendang, ada kuah kacang, ada nasik himpit. Kire dah menu raya la tu kan.. :p Baju raya pun ada, fmly poskan.. kakteh plak tu yg jahit. (jangan tanya apsal aku x pandai jahit sndiri ye).

Haritu sebelum raya, ada jugak aku dpt beberapa kad raya dpd kawan2 n fmly kt Mesia (fmly aku mmg kt mesia je ada :p). Thanks kepada sesapa yang kasi kad raya tu eh, korang sume sgt la best. And minta maaflah tak ada kad raya balasan... sini takde kad raya.. hehe. Lain kali i'll send postcards tu u guys..

Dalam banyak2 kad raya, ada satu yg ada lagu raya. Kad daripada ayahanda terchenta la tu. Siap tulis ayat2 syahdu lg tu. Well.. that's my father, memang sungguh sentimental.. hehe. Pagi2 raya tu siap nangis lg. Mama cool je la.. rock katekan..

Haa inilah dia ucapan dlm kad raya yg sentimental itu.

Ni plak baju raya yang my lil sis jahitkan.. kagum betul. Thanks ye budak busuk.. :p

Yang lain2 ni ialah gamba2 hari raya pertama. Untuk kakteh, ni bukti org pakai baju raya tu.. jangan ingat org tak pakai tauu. Gambar2 raya yg lain akan di update kemudian..

Owh ye, terima kasih jugak untuk orang yang tolong makankan (makan on behalf of me :p ) juadah2 hari raya haritu. Patut ler kenyanggg gile kt UK ni haa.. :p

;)

pervert!!

2009-09-23T23:51:00.004+01:00

Sy sangat marah, geram dan sakit hati. Nafas dah turun naik, rasa nak menangis pun ada. :(

It was 11.20pm and I was in the bathroom, brushing and flossing my teeth when I heard somebody rang the bell. With curiosity, I went downstairs with Kak shidah. We decided to open the door but with the chain locked (thank God).

And there was this British (I think) guy, asking time.. "what's time now?"

"20 past 11", I said.

"Can you please unlock the door?" he insisted.

And we started thinking that there was something wrong with this guy. I immediately shut the door and asked him from inside.

"What do you want?"

"Please look through the window", he said.

And I went to the window as I thought he might wanna say or show something. And indeed, yes he was showing his penis. Damn pervert!!!!!!!!!

To the pervert, get a life! or at least get a hooker will u?

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Geram

2009-09-14T14:21:00.003+01:00

I came to the library because I thought I need different environment to work in. It was peaceful until this Korean guy came and sit in front of me and then constantly having conversation thru mobile phone! Siap gelak2 manja lagi tu. Lain kali kalau nak berchenta sila keluar.

Marah btl la.

lack in look, rich in attitude

2009-09-11T15:17:00.004+01:00

Just had a meeting about 20 minutes ago. Not much discussed, or nothing to share really.

Bob was wearing a camouflage trousers with a tucked in long sleeve blue-white stripe shirt. Formal for upper-half, informal for bottom half. No comment but I do think that he needs a personal image consultant.

He is a very nice guy, very helpful supervisor, very entertaining friend, very kind, and on and on and on, the list goes. Might lack the look (and style) but very rich in attitude. He has got everything a student need as a supervisor. To me he is a gift, and of course he is an exception as most supervisors just don't care that much about their students.

Last Wednesday when we were in a supervision meeting,

"Are you around on Friday?" I asked.

"Let's see if I have anything to do...", he said as he picked up his diary and checked the date. Usually he is around only if he has got meetings or classes to teach. Other stuff preferred to be done at home because less distraction, he told me once. "I don't have anything written here on my Friday...."

"Owh it's okay if you are not coming,.. ", I interrupted.

"No no no, there's always a yes. So what time do you wanna meet? 2pm meeting for a 2pm person I guess?", he asked before couldn't stop himself from laughing (sempat lg perli aku.. chaittt.. haha).

"2pm it is!", smiling whilst ignoring the irony.. :p

...........................

The other day when he was on holidays,

"Hey how are you doing?", he suddenly appeared at my door.

"Not bad, but heyy why are you here? Aren't you supposed to be on leave?"

"Sort of am, came to visit you! Got a minute? I have thoughts on what you sent me last nite"

He came just to share thoughts on the work I sent him night before.

I should be grateful, and thankful to Allah. For every single thing that happens in my life...

please please please... kamu jangan nakal..

2009-09-10T15:03:00.004+01:00

Fallen for this song.. sgt comel dan sweet.. haha.

Semua tahu kamu cantik
Semua tahu kau menarik
Kau bidadari terhebat
Membuat cintaku makin kuat

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Chorus
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Ku pergi sebentar
Bukan untuk curang
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Nanti aku datang
Bawa yang kau pesan

Diriku untukmu

Semua tahu kau milikku
Semua tahu ku cintamu
Ada pun yang memandangku
Betapa beruntungnya aku

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Ulang Chorus

Bukan aku terlalu
Mengawal sikapmu
Ku hanya terlalu
Terlalu sayangi kamu
Ampunkan aku terlebih-lebih
Jagakan kamu
Ku cintamu
Kau cintaku

Ulang Chorus 3X

Diriku untukmu
Diriku untukmu

"Love VS Need" , "Wanted VS Needed"

2009-09-08T12:40:00.004+01:00

Often I heard these two popular quotes:

"I love you because I need you"

"I need you because I love you"

At a glance, there is no obvious difference between those two. Both look similar and technically correct. But when we think a bit further (women do this, silly though!), we may find that they're different. At least philosophically. Women might want to hear the second one because there is no doubt it's the ideal one. The first one is not preferable by women but often said by men.

"Why do you love me?", one may ask.

"Because I need you", the other may answer.

I love you because I need somebody to make my breakfast, to do laundry, to wake me up, to prepare my lunch, dinner bla bla bla. Sounds selfish isn't it?

How about.. I love you because I need you to be by my side, and the need is of course because my love towards you. And I would not need somebody whom I don't love. Now it sounds ideal.

Now ladies, let's not being too rigid (this is for myself too, haha..) because everything in this world is true to some extent and false to some extent. Let's take an analogy of a half glass of water. Is it full? No. Is it empty? No. The truth is, it is both empty and full. 50% full and 50% empty. Hence the statement "the glass is full" is 50% correct and 50% false. And so with the statement "the glass is empty" - also 50% correct and 50% false. (ape kaitan??)

Sambung balik..

Then, what's the difference between "want" and "need"? I, if without a deep thought would prefer to be wanted, and not to be needed. Because again, that silly way of thinking which makes me feel that a "need" is a selfishness. But it actually is not true, I just realised. At least not 100% true, if we think through the fuzzy route.

Somebody said, "need is like oxygen in life, but want is like a cigarette. You need oxygen to survive but you need cigarette because you simply want to smoke", not exactly the same sentence, but more or less.

Nah! Now I want to be needed, not wanted. Because I want to be oxygen, not cigarette! And also, I guess I now have a new perception and would not be skeptical on the sentence "I love you because I need you" again.

p/s : Hari ini sy tidak pegi sekolah. Kesudahannya, kerja sy ialah merapu2... hahaha!

sedih.. sedih..

2009-08-27T16:29:00.003+01:00

Tadi lepas hantar draft paper kat Bob rasa sangat lega. Kebetulan dia ada kat opis arini (walaupun sepatutnya on annual leave until 6th sept), so aku submit hardcopy je la. Lepas cokcekcokcek (atau pungpangpungpang) kejap, aku pun keluar dpd opis dia. Okeh, sudah settle satu benda.

Setengah jam lepas tu baru teringat ada satu soalan penting yg aku lupa nak tanya. Tapi ketuk2 pintu dah takde orang. Dah balik rumah la tu.

Then aku fikir nak tanya via email je. Lalu dengan harapan yang tinggi sikit daripada gunung Everest, aku pun hantar email kt Bob. Bayangkan la sket punya tinggi harapan gue.

Lepas berbalas2 6-7 email, keputusannya agak mengecewakan. Selambe je Bob tak kasi balik Mesia bulan doblas. Hah, kejamm... kejammmmmm!

*mengemas2 barang untuk balik umah sambil menyanyikan lagi Robek Hatiku*

hari ini sy ialah budak baik

2009-08-27T00:05:00.003+01:00

[masih lagi berada di dalam mode 'saya']

Time now is 12.09am. Saya sudah mahu tidur. Jarang-jarang dapat menaip atas katil sebelum tidur dengan perasaan tenang macam ni. Harini ialah hari yang agak produktif (sebab tu lah rasa mcm baik :p ). Paper yg dah lama terbengkalai tu dah nak siap.. hoyehh. Intro, methods, results, analysis, discussion, conclusion all done. Tinggal lagi references yg berterabur sikit-sikit. Tapi rasanya esok siap dan dah boleh hantar dekat Bob. Bulan puasa ni tak banyak sangat distraction (setan pun kene ikat kan), takde la kejap2 nak pegi cafe, kejap2 nak berborak (sebab x cukup air liur), kejap2 nak mem'procrastinate' (still but kureng sikit). Kesimpulannya, harini sy sgt berpuas hati, Alhamdulillah.. dan semoga esok lebih baik insyaAllah.

Semoga Ramadhan kali ni membawa seribu kemanisan dalam hidup kita.. =)

.......

Lampu dah dipadamkan. Goodnite!

Ini sangat awal

2009-08-18T07:56:00.001+01:00

Ketika saya (tibe2 'saya') menaip ini, jam menunjukkan pukul 7.56 pagi. Dan hari ini ialah hari Selasa. Owh lagi satu, saya berada di school saya. Pelik tak??

MU - Valencia : [2-0]

2009-08-06T13:50:00.004+01:00

Never been a big fan, tp boleh je layankan.. hehehe..

It was a great game by the way. Tetapi Owen nampak sedikit gemuk.. haha.

Awak rajin tak berdoa?

2009-07-27T17:55:00.004+01:00

Hari ni tak lah seproduktif mana. Cuma sempatlah aku siapkan apa yang Bob nak untuk paper yang sedang dikerjakan. Macam biasa, I do the technical bits!

Sejak balik dari Paris, baru hari ni lah aku pegi skul. Khamis dan Jumaat lepas dengan selamba-tak-makan-saman nye berehat di rumah menghilangkan keletihan berjalan2. (Owh mama, maafkan anakanda sebab ponteng skolah.. :p )

Kat skul, sewaktu meng'run'kan simulation sambil2 berbual2 dengan sorang kawan, muncul satu soalan,

"Awak rajin tak berdoa?" tanya kawan ni.

Terkedu sekejap. Macamana aku nak jawab soalan ni? "Ye sy rajin.." - nampak macam tipu. "Doa lah jugak sikit2.. " - bunyinya macam doa nak taknak. Macamana aku berdoa selama ni?

Teringat aku macamana mama dan ayah berdoa. Setiap kali berdoa, aku nampak air mata yg bercucuran. Baik mama, baik ayah. Ada satu masa, aku nampak mama dan ayah berjemaah. Aku dengar doa. "Ya Allah, ubatilah luka di hati cahayamata kami.. etc.. etc.. etc..". And I burst into tears. Aku sedih aku menangis, sepatutnya aku berdoa.

Aku nak juga doa sungguh2.. doa macam bercakap dengan Tuhan. Bukan doa yang kelam kabut. Bukan sekadar 'doa default' yg automatik terkeluar setiap kali selepas salam. Apa yg kurang?

Terima kasih kepada yg mengingatkan. :)

Semoga lepas ni, dalam doa ada 'hati'..

Bye-bye I am leaving for Paris

2009-07-19T12:31:00.002+01:00

Hari isnin pagi kaki aku akan berpijak di bumi Paris. Maka dengan itu email Bob sudah tidak diperdulikan lagi, hahaha. Tapi baju and tudung sume belum gosok lagi, toiletries x prepare lg, barang x pack lagi. Tiket2 semua dah suruh kak shidah yg tlg simpankan. Semoga kejadian terlepas flight takkan berulang lagi.. muehehhe..

Okay kawan2, mari kita saksikan satu clip yg agak comel.

See u guys when I get back!

memetik buah

2009-07-17T00:52:00.005+01:00

Hari ahad lepas kitorg pegi memetik buah kat area Herefordshire. Sampai ke harini muka aku berbelang, sunburn punye pasal la. Aktiviti memetik buah sangatlah syok, sebab sambil petik sambil masuk mulut... ahaha (keji kan). Kak Shidah ialah photographer of the day, skarang sudah agak pro nampaknye.. hehe.

Tadi aku balik dari skul agak lambat. Bukan sebab buat keje la tapi, ntah hape2 yg aku buat. Sedar2 dah malam. Games kat fb (seperti Farm Town) tu la punye pasal. Bikin gua tak senang duduk untuk concentrate. Esok ni ada meeting dgn Bob pukul 4 petang. Kire ok la kot pegi tghari, sempatlah menyiapkan point2 menggoreng seperti biasa.

Demam MJ ternyata belum habis. Tiap2 malam melayan mv dia lagi. Playlist dalam winamp ni still lagi lagu2 MJ, semata2 MJ. Bob kata, ini sangat teruk.. haha.

Ni ada gambar2 memetik buah (dan berposing) untuk tatapan korang sebelum I'm off to bed!

I am back!

2009-07-15T21:24:00.004+01:00

Owh sangat kesian kan dengan blog ni, telah lama ditinggalkan. Last entry bertarikh 19 May, maknanya dah dekat 2 bulan ni aku mendiamkan diri. Sori ye kawan2.

Bulan May aritu sangat lah bz, mmg bz keterlaluan sampai terpaksa melakukan aktiviti luarbiasa iaitu berada di skul sampai pagi.. haha, sangatlah bukan efa kan. Semua pasal reviva la tu, skarang Alhamdulillah semua dah lepas (dah lepas sejak 11 june lagi :p ).

Lepas kebizian melanda tu, berita kematian Michael Jackson tersangatlah membuatkan aku tibe2 berdukacita. Sebelum tu siap ada niat nak beli tiket konsert MJ dpd si bobo. Nampaknya mmg tak kesampaian la sampai bile2 kan. Takpe la, dah ada 5 dvd dalam simpanan (maaf ye cik2 housemates kerana mengulangtayang berkali2.. haha.

Apa la kbr member2 yg lain eh? Banyak tahniah yang belum disampaikan ni. Rasanya lg senang kalau aku listkan je:

1. Tahniah untuk Kak Shida sebab dapat kerja baru kat Perak.. mestiii hepi kan dapat duduk dekatt kampung.. hehehe. Kene mintak belanja ni.... :p

2. Tahniah untuk Kak Ct atas kelahiran hero yg comel, dgr cerita kak Ct dah dapat mengajar kan, tahniahhh tau. (nak tgk babyyy :p )

3. Tahniah untuk Alya Marlina n her husband on their wedding, semoga bahagiaa dunia dan akhirat..

4. Kak Enu, tak sure dah deliver ke belum, tapi kalau dah nak ucapkan tahniah la jugak.. hehe. Teringin nak tengok anak buah baru.. :p

5. Tahniah yg terlewat untuk acam jugak.. hehehehe.. ibu Darwish dah jadi cekguuuuuuu..

6. Tahniah zila.. on her wedding (dah lama dah, tapi rasanya belum ucap tahniah lagi). Zila, dah ada berita gumbira lum?? heheheheeh

Note : kalau ada yg tertinggal akan di update kemudian.

i miss'em!

2009-05-19T16:39:00.008+01:00

Aku bukan la takde keje. In fact baru habis meeting tadi dengan Bob and Nick. Tapi tadi saje2 je tengok friendster adik2 aku. The old pictures make me smile.. ;) Gambar2 yang tak berapa 'old' pun but not that recent jugak..

masa ni tahun 2007, cuti2 dalam negeri sahaja.. haha. Ayah memang suka buat gaya macho sebegitu. Aku tak tau la ayah malu nak tengok camera ke apa. Tapi setiap kali orang nak snap mesti nak tengok tempat lain.. aihh..

Ini budak kakcik. Ni gamba 3 tahun lepas kot. Degil budak nih kekadang.. tp manja terlebih.. haha. Tapi dia ada keupayaan yang tinggi untuk buat dek je walaupun time kene marah. Kental btl.. :p She's now in her industrial training kek Soromban jo..

Ni budak kakteh... gamba time dia form 3. Sangatlah outspoken. Pastu kalau cakap jenis yang high pitch punye.. haha. Sangat suka jugak bergaduh dgn ayah and mama. Setiap kali gaduh tu mesti dia yang merajuk ataupun ayah yg merajuk. Dia ni pun manja tak hingat jugak. Kat skolah dulu abes semua jenis tok nenek punye syarahan, pidato, debat, sajak, pantun even syair pun dia blasah, sbb tu ler mulut dia bising sket kot. Tapi kalau dia takde, rumah tu macam sunyi. Dia jugak yg paling ustazah skali.. heheeh.

Haaa yg ni sekarang dah macho. Kecik2 debap. Ni gamba 2 tahun lepas jugak ni. Sekarang seriusss sudah hensem adik heroku ni. Dia sgt sweet and cute. Selalu telefon aku guna italk daripada public phone skolah dia. Sangatlah terharu.

Owh how I miss them soooo much!

Bob yang comel

2009-05-14T00:42:00.004+01:00

Esok ada meeting dengan Bob pukul 1. Aku tak tau la apa benda nak discuss ni. Takkan borak2 kosong kot.

Haa.. aritu Alya suruh letak gambar Bob, dia nak tengok. Gamba yang ada Bob aku ada satu je, tu pun gamba ramai2 masa pegi Vienna.

Bob semestinya yang berdiri sebelah aku tu. Comel bukan?

Note : apasal selama ni aku tak rasa aku pendek pun?

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Selamat Hari Ibu

2009-05-11T01:27:00.002+01:00

Khas buat ibu yang juga teman sejati, rakan karib, kawan gosip dan segalanya bagiku...

Selamat Hari Ibu

Terima kasih kerana menjadi ibu terbaik dalam dunia.. ;)

Aku nak buat..

2009-05-06T19:26:00.004+01:00

I feel quite convinced that the next small viva would not be another disaster. Tu pun setelah berhempas pulas lately. Well I guess that's how it meant to be. Hopefully semuanya okay.. Ameen..

Aku rindu family jugak 2-3 hari ni. Terasa jeles dengan orang yang selalu ada dekat dengan parents. Aku selalu jauh. Sejak sekolah lagi memang berjauhan. Tapi hati tak pernah jauh kot. Biasanya kemana-mana pun aku pegi, family aku tetap ada dalam hati, in fact they are more than anything else, even myself.

Family aku bukan la orang senang, tapi tak la sesusah mana. Pendek kata, semuanya serba sederhana. Tapi seingat aku, sejak aku kecil lagi tak pernah mama dan ayah hampakan aku. Semuanya disediakan, semuanya cukup. Orang makan best2, aku pun makan best2. Orang pakai baju cantik2, baju aku pun cantik2. Orang beli stationaries, beg baru, kasut baru, aku pun sama. Aku tak pernah rasa terkurang.

Masa skolah rendah aku dan kakcik (adik aku) duduk dengan arwah nenek dan arwah atuk sebab senang nak pegi sekolah. (Kakteh duduk dengan parents sebab masa tu dia belum sekolah, syahmi belum lahir lagi). Tapi tiap2 minggu mama and ayah balik, dan tiap2 hari jugak diorang call kampung tu tanya kitorang buat apa, keje sekolah dah siap ke, ada degil dengan nenek tak, macam2 la soalan standard mama tiap2 hari. Setiap kali mama dan ayah balik bawak macam2. Makanan banyak gile, buah2, coklat, mainan, macam2 la. Time raya, orang sibuk2 kira berapa pasang baju raya, aku ngan kakcik pun tak kalah, ada 5-6 pasang, walaupun kitorang kire sekali dengan baju tidur baru... haha. Best sangat sekolah kat kampung. Pagi2 pegi skolah, balik skolah singgah kedai A'ei (kedai cina kat kampung aku) beli aiskrim, petang2 pegi main, balik main pegi ngaji, balik ngaji tgk tv, lepas tgk tv tido. Keje sekolah buat sebelum perhimpunan hari2 kat sekolah. Hah, mana taknye aku sampai ke sekarang jd last-minuter, sejak kecik2 dah pandai buat camtu..haha.

Lepas habis sekolah rendah, mama dan ayah amik balik kitorang bawak duduk dengan dorang. Aku pun masuk Convent Seremban. Setahun je duduk hostel sebab hari-hari aku paksa mak aku kuarkan aku daripada hostel. Last2 ayah pun surrender je, dorang keluarkan aku dpd hostel. So aku duduk rumah daripada form 2 sampai habis form 3. Form 4 aku dah masuk mrsm Taiping. Lepas habis form 5, masuk matrix kat melaka setahun. Then, UTM 4 tahun. Lepas habis UTM, aku duduk rumah 2 minggu je, lepas tu dah start keje kt Petaling Jaya (Navi & Map). Lepas sebulan keje situ, aku keje kat Resgis pulak, Sri Hartamas sebelum aku further study kat sini. Just imagine, masa aku betul2 lekat kat rumah memang masa form 2-3 je. Itupun nasib baik aku paksa parents aku kuarkan aku daripada hostel. Kalau tak, maknanya rumah aku tu macam istana hinggap je la bagi aku.

Tapi sejauh mana pun aku, mama dan ayah tak pernah lupa call aku. Tak pernah tinggal tanya aku dah makan ke belum. Tak pernah lupa tanya aku sihat ke tak. Cuma bila aku kat sini, aku la kene call kan, mana mampu dorang nak call hari2. Tapi selalu jugak diorang call, walaupun tak lama.

Aku rasa aku jenis independent jugak. Aku tak manja membabi buta. Aku buat benda yang aku boleh buat, dan aku tak harapkan parents buat untuk aku. Maksud aku, benda yang besar2 la. Aku tak suruh ayah hantar aku kemana2, aku tak mintak duit selagi aku boleh survive. Tapi kalau bab2 pasang ubat nyamuk sebelum tidur, halau cicak, memang biasanya ayah yang buat untuk aku.

Family aku dikira mesra la jugak. Kawan-kawan pun ramai cakap macam tu. Ayah dengan mama tak pernah berkasar. Aku tak pernah kene rotan sejak kecik (sebab aku baik kot.. haha). Kat rumah aku tu, suasana biasa je kalau anak2 baring atas riba ayah, biasa je kalau mama suap kitorang makan walaupun semua dah besar2. Kadang2, ayah yang keringkan rambut aku pakai hair dryer, sebab aku malas nak buat. Kadang2 bila semua orang malas nak keringkan rambut masing2, ayah akan buat semua. Start daripada rambut mama, aku, kakcik, pastu kakteh. Syahmi tak perlu la kot. Kalau tiba2 aku tak sempat makan sebab bergegas nak keluar, mama pegang pinggan tu, suap sambil2 aku siap pakai tudung, sampai laa aku masuk dalam kereta. Mama kata, "nanti anak mama tak ada la lapar sangat".

Aku selalu senyum, selalu rasa sgt bahagia, selalu kata yang aku bersyukur dikurniakan ibu bapa sebaik dan semulia tu. Aku nak buat yang baik2, aku nak berjaya, aku nak bagi mama dan ayah senyum lebar2 sampai telinga. Walaupun memang aku tak dapat nak balas semuanya, sekurang2nya, aku nak diorang rasa lega ada anak macam aku.

Kenapa aku tak pernah terfikir untuk suap mak aku makan, untuk sikat rambut ayah aku? Aku nak buat benda-benda tu balik nanti.

Aku nak buat, tolong ingatkan aku.

Pelangi

2009-05-04T23:46:00.002+01:00

Cantik kan pelangi ni?

Aku snap daripada tingkap ofis kt school. Sebelum tu macam mendung, then hujan, bila lepas hujan tu ada matahari yang terang benderang and muncul la pelangi yg sangat cantik juga.. :p.

Kalau tak hujan, camana nak ada pelangi betul tak?

Manalah pelangi aku tak muncul-muncul ni.. hahaha!

kalaulah aku tak sabar... dot dot dot

2009-04-30T17:56:00.004+01:00

Terasa mcm impressed dengan diri sendiri jugak sebab tak menangis, sabar jugak la aku ni kiranya kan.. haha. Semalam balik pukul 11.30pm, betapa komitednya aku semenjak dua menjak ni. Sesuatu yang tak penah langsung berlaku sebelum ni. Biasa la kan, when the pressure is there, you'll just do it.

Tapi tak kisah la tu, aku try la buat the best untuk pilot project yang due this 1st of June. Lepas je discuss and plan2 bagai dengan Bob Isnin haritu, aku start la pulun.. ni mmg pulun betul tak tipu punye.

Then macam biasalaa.. semalam discuss, tadi discuss2 lagi. Pastu tengah syok2 calculate, compare bagai, tiba2 aku dengan Bob sama2 tepuk dahi. Bila masing2 dah tepuk dahi tu maknanya apa lagi?

Korang rasa kenapa?

Hmm.. keje 3 hari tu aku terpaksa campak dlm parit je semata2 sebab one silly button-pushing mistake. Kesian kan aku ni?

and now it's kickin'

2009-04-18T12:31:00.014+01:00

Aku stress ke apa ni? Ahaha.. tak kot. At least aku tak la jadi macam kucing kat atas ni. Cuma aku jadi tak betul sikit , pegi school pagi2, balik malam. 2 hari lepas, aku tak balik langsung rumah.. pagi semalam baru balik. Tu dah kira macam buang tebiat la kalau kawan2 aku tau. SGG's collegues kalau tau kompem ah gelak guling2 terutamanya si Alya. Ye lah, insiden camni amatlah jarang sekali berlaku masa degree dulu. Bukan jarang kot, rasanya memang tak penah.

Aku tak buang tebiat pun (tak tau lah kalau mmg ye). First review aku akhirrnyaaaa tiba jua, isnin (lusa) 11 pagi. Pastu hari Rabu dah kene pegi Vienna untuk EGU conference. Kalau pegi conference jalan2 ye la aku tak heran, ni kene oral and poster presentation. Dua beb duaa. Poster aku tak siap lagi (20% done), presentation slides tak prepare lagi (0% done). Adoii mana aku tak jd mereng 2-3 hari ni.

Hah, jangan cuba buat lawak bodoh kat aku sampai aku habis conference. Kalau tak, naya aku sekeh. :p

Satu lagi lupa nak bgtau. Hari ni Sabtu dan aku kat school.

"Apalahhh sangat sekali Sabtu pegi school nak dibandingkan berhari2 ponteng" <---- aku tau korang nak cakap ni.

Ni gamba sewaktu aku berjoli2 kt Oslo... :p

Kebizian selepas bersuka2

2009-04-16T11:24:00.002+01:00

Aku tiba2 jadi bz bagai nak gila. Semalam ada mock viva. Kene taruh la jugak kan.. haha. Ada la Bob cakap yg aku kene tambah, adjust bagai. Tak tau la sempat ke x ni.

Haritu Easter Holiday aku pegi Oslo dengan housemates and 2 other guys. It was a great fun, tp aku sgt malas nak upload gamba. Nanti2 la ye kalau rajin.. hehe. Takpun korang tengok je dalam facebook... :p

p/s : gamba atas tu bukan kat Oslo..

i heart Jason Mraz~~~

2009-04-09T14:10:00.007+01:00

Kalau termasuk harini memang dah 3 hari tak pegi school. Selasa, pegi konsert jason mraz. Semalam, terasa mcm nak demam (ngade2 lebih pun ye jugak), harini sebab batuk cam tak bleh blah jugak la, kalau pegi kang takut mengganggu org lain (ceh alasan..). Esok dah start cuti Easter, sampai la Rabu baru school bukak. Maknenye aku dah cuti terlebih advance dpd org lain.. haha.

Jason Mraz sgt cool. Bestt.. bestttt.. besttttt.. hehe. Ni ada gamba yang tak baper dekat utk tatapan korang :p Video sangat lambat untuk diupload. Lain kali lah ye kawan2..

Thanks to pakcik and syafiq sebab tolong hantarkan aku ngan kak shidah balik Notts. ;) Sampai dah terngantuk2 member..

Entry Paling Mahal

2009-04-04T20:18:00.008+01:00

Ni sebenarnya entry menjawab tag Acam je. Tapi memang mahal la.. sebab apa tu, sendiri tengok ok! :p

1. apakah nama penuh anda
Korang dah tau kan..

2.nama yang anda harap itu nama anda
Ntah la, dulu kecik2 slalu fikir apasal nama aku bukan Syakila.. terpengaruh ngan cite drama apa ntah.

3.post 4 pictures yang tiada siapa tengok lagi

Haa.. part ni la menyebabkan entry ni jadi paling mahal.

Haa amacam? Pekat macam dodol kot.. haha :p

Aku pun tak tau apa gediknya aku buat aksi camni.

Ni lagi satu.. kureng sket teleng.

Haa.. ni gamba mama dengan ayah time dolu2. Tu tgk ah spec kaler merah tu.. adoiii.. (sori mama :p)

4.apakah kenangan paling berharga anda dalam hidup?

Banyak kot. Salah satunye masa first time ayah and mama bawak naik ketapi. Pegi KL je pun, jalan2 kat zoo. Hahaha.. tapi best la masa tu kecik lagi, rasa macam nak naik beratus2 kali.

5.apakah prinsip hidup anda?

Cuba sampai dapat.

6.apakah perangai anda yang paling buruk

Tido secara berlebih2an. Marathon sampai berbelas jam kadang tu. Memang tak senonoh!

7. tulis diatas kertas dan postkan juga 'ucapan anda kepada saya dan tandatangan anda'

Ni tak baper faham ni.. x dapek nk jawab.

Meh layan

2009-04-03T12:55:00.003+01:00

Alahh.. nanti la ye cite emo2 tu aku bgtau. Lagipun tak elok kan aku layan amukan dalam hati ni, kang macam2 pulak yg keluar. Takpe.. aku x kisah. Cuma satu je la, aku tak maafkan (Ni mmg kali pertama aku cakap camni seumur hidup aku). Kalau nak aku maafkan, datang jumpa aku face-to-face lah kan. Ada brani?

Si acam sampai kasi msg kt facebook. Rilek ah cam.. heheh. Thanks for the concern eh. Sayang sume kawan2 aku. Korang bestest!

Okay lah, meh kite layan satu video ni. Agak sweet.. (bg aku la).

So kepada korang2 yg ada husband tu boleh la try method ni. :p

EMO

2009-04-02T14:58:00.002+01:00

Benciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alhamdulillah

2009-03-31T14:33:00.002+01:00

Sampai skolah pukul 2 petang. Kagum? Hahah.. gile btl aku. Harini Bob takde, x tau pegi mana. Email ajaib pun dia tak tinggalkan...bz la tu kot.

Semalam tido pukul 4 pagi. Nasib la skang ni subuh dah start kol 3 lbh, kalau tak mmg terselamat la. Skang ni aku susah gile nak bangun pagi, apa punya penyakit pn aku x tau. Alarm aku berbunyik beratus2 kali aku boleh je amik, snoozekan beratus2 kali jugak.

Aku pelik jugak, camana bleh ada orang yg semangat hari2. Tabik spring btl.

Anyway, congratulations to saudara baru, Maeyi. Alhamdulillah.. Apa nama baru ko ni Maeyi?

Receiving but not giving

2009-03-30T14:28:00.002+01:00

Ntah apa dah aku buat kat cafe library ni, tengok orang lalu lalang, bising2, sibuk2 pinjam/pulang buku. Aku tercongok je kat sini dengan laptop. Coffee pun dah sejuk.

Camana nak describe perasaan ni pun x tau la. Aku rasa aku ni bermasalah kot. Sekarang kalau ada apa2 pun aku tak penah nak cakap. Diam and buat bodoh. Sampai benda tu hilang sendiri. Pastu kalau orang tanya pun, memang tersangat malas nak jawab.

Dan lagi satu, if I do care about somebody, aku jadi cepat marah. Contohnya adik, kalau aku tanya pastu dia taknak jawab.. tibe2 aku jadi angin. Aku bukan tak hargai pun apa orang buat untuk aku, tp it doesn't feel right when u are always receiving but not giving.

Cukup merepek sorang2. Dah.

Changes!

2009-03-29T16:45:00.002+01:00

These are some changes of my blog ye kawan2:

1. Aku tukar layout. Saje2 sebab bosan dgn layout basic tu. Takde sebab2 special. Note yg sebelah kanan atas tu mmg sedia ada dlm layout ni, bukan aku yang type. Dan ia tidak langsung membawa apa2 maksud. Hah, jangan tnya lagi ye. Penat aku jawab.

2. Aku tukar blog address, sebab address lama agak sudah tidak relevan. Aku dah tak sayang sapa2 pun kecuali my family.

Sekian time kasih. ;)

CeritaTertinggalFlight (Maeyi's request)

2009-03-28T21:58:00.002Z

Tiba2 aku rasa macam bahu ada sikit terkehel. Saja takde keje beraerobic dgn kak shidah petang tadi. Yang tak bleh blahnye tu, hiphop punye aerobic. Hahaha.. canggih betul kak shidah punye koleksi video aerobic, sampai terkehel aku. Esok nak try yang Paula Abdul plak.. kalau terkehel lagi, sah badan ni mcm kayu.

Okay, sebab maeyi (haha.. :p ) asik bising2 je suruh cite pasal tertinggal flight tu, ni aku cite la. Aritu masa book tiket tu aku mmg book untuk balik 28 Feb. Pastu aku pun x baper amik port la kan 28 hb tu pukul baper. Dalam 2 minggu sblm balik tu aku pun cek la flight aku pukul berapa. Okay, flight aku pukul 12.30 malam. Then aku pun dengan sangat sengalnya setkan dalam otak aku ni, flight aku 28 Feb, 12.30 malam.

Sampaiiii la ke hari 28 hb tu, masa tengah packing2 barang (biasalah, aku mana penah packing awal2), konon2 flight aku malam tu la. Masa tengah dok minum petang, aku tiba2 terfikir,

"flight aku 28 hb, 0030 hrs.. hmmm"

OMG! Aku dah seram sejuk dah.. mati aku. Aku cakap plahan2 kat mama dgn ayah,

"Rasa macam dah terlepas flight je ni.." (terpaksa la buat2 cool).

Mama dgn ayah apa lagi.. "Haaaa???? terlepas flight?? biar betul!!"

Ahh.. aku dah agak dah, kan dah kene panic attack dua2 tu. Aku naik atas cek balik flight ticket, betul lah... memang dah terlepas. Flight aku sbnrnya malam sblm tu. Hah, padan muka kau efa. Sapa suruh tak cek betul2. Lepas tu kelam kabut la sampai abis orang2 notts, birm, sampai ke Paris aku kejekan suruh carik phone number Emirates Airlines. Kopak 75 pound!

Okay ye Maeyi.. aku dah langsaikan hutang aku ni.

Encik Wacko, ko sakit2 kaki pun buleh merayap2 apa cer?

Cacat

2009-03-21T17:45:00.005Z

Hari ni pukul 6.06 pagi dah habis waktu Subuh. Disebabkan terpaksa bangun dengan sangat awal, maka macam biasalah, lepas Subuh aku confirm sambung tidur (sedangkan kalau waktu subuh lewat pun aku macam tu).

Siangnya aku tak kemana. Sedikit rajin, aku masak untuk lunch. Masak lemak cili api telur dan kobis goreng kicap. Kalau nak dikirakan nisbah aku masak dengan Kak Shidah masak, rasanya 1:10. Sepuluh kali Kak Shidah masak, sekali aku masak. Nasib baik Kak Shidah tak kisah.

First Year Review sepatutnya dah berakhir 19 hb, Khamis lepas. Tapi internal examiner ada field work pulak, last minute notice. Disebabkan tu, review ditangguhkan lagi sampai 20 April. Aku diberi masa untuk hantar report paling lewat 19 hb March 4 petang. Memandangkan perangai aku yang terlalu suka berfoya2 ni, maka sekali lagi aku terpaksa menyiapkan report dengan cara pulun-sampai-nak-mati. 20 jam aku menaip report, tanpa berhenti kecuali untuk solat. Makan pun sambil menaip, mandi memang tak la. Sapa suruh buat kerja last minute, padan muka aku kan.

Dan report tu aku submit dengan sangat leganya hari Rabu pagi (18 March). Dah cek ala kadar sebelum hantar. Lepas hantar, aku tak tengok balik report tu. Dan baru sekejap tadi, bila aku check, rupa2nya diagrams numbering berterabur. Figure 1, 2, 3 dah ok... bila Figure 4, tiba2 labelled as Figure 2 pulak. Jadi, Fig 5 dah tertukar ke 3, Fig 6 tertukar ke 4,. and on and on it goes.

Aku dah tak tau nak cakap apa. Sebulan internal examiner akan pegang report aku. Kalau dia cek teliti-nak-mati, habislah!

Macamana kalau dia terus hilang mood untuk baca report aku?

Macamana kalau disebabkan messed up numbering tu, dia pandang aku macam orang yang buat kerja ala kadar? (aku buat last minute, tapi sumpah bukan ala kadar)

Macamana kalau dia tak baca pun report aku betul2, tapi disebabkan numbering tu, dia kata "Your report sux!" ???

Report tu cacat. Aku dah rasa macam nak nangis. Sangat takut kot ni. :(

pagi yang awal

2009-03-09T07:16:00.003Z

Hari ini aku bangun awal. Pukul 5.30 pagi dah tersedar, tapi dok bergulung lagi bwah duvet sampai 6.15 am sebelum aku bangun solat. Dan aku tak tidur balik lepas subuh. Ajaib.

Cerita2 pasal cuti aku kiv dulu. Esok ada presentation untuk PhD Colloqium. Lepas tu ada meeting dengan Bob. (obviously ni lah sebabnya aku tak tido balik lepas subuh tadi)

Dua hari sekali meeting sampai la 19 March. Ngeri aku tunggu tarikh tu.

Harini dah janji taknak chatting dengan sapa2, taknak cek2 friendster, facebook, dan apa2 pun yang sewaktu dengannya.

Selamat berjaya kepada diri sendiri.

Setelah aku terlepas flight..

2009-03-06T07:12:00.004Z

Hah, dah sebulan kan aku tak merepek2 dalam ni. Terasa macam nak tuka plak, malas dah nak pakai 'kite'2 ni.. isk.. maka anggaplah ni musim baru yg mana aku menjadi seorang manusia yang agak brutal (brutal?? tak sesuaii je bunyik..).. haha. Maleh plak rasanya nak kontrol2 ayu.

Aku terlepas flight balik sini aritu.. haa gelak la.. gelak. Cmana ntah bleh salah tgk time. Petang2 aku konon2 prepare nk balik tu, baru aku terperasan yg flight aku sbnrnye the day before... haru tak? Haa tu baru satu cite gempak yg aku nak cite.. byk lagi sbnrnye.. tp aku bz sket, karang2 atau esok2 la aku cite yg lain2 tu. Pasal melawat member2 yg memasing dh ada baby.. ada yg dh nk kawin.. pasal makanan yg best2.. pasal naik solero shot.. pasal makan steambot.. makan durian.. (sesapa yg takde kt Mesia tu jangan nangis lah, musim durian kt mesia mmg dah nak abis pun, kalau korg balik skang pun rasanya tinggal saki baki durian je).

Ok sambung nanti2 la ye.. sengaja je nak bgtau kewujudan aku. Mesti ada yg ingat aku nak kuburkan blog ni kan.. hehe. Takde maknenye.

Fred - the next days....

2009-01-22T23:20:00.004Z

Malas nak update day by day pasal Fred.. :p Just wanna share the pictures of this charming Mr Fred!

Td balik dpd school I went to Vera's house to feed Fred. Main2 dgn dia kejap je pun. Kesian tgk dia masa kite n kak shidah nak balik tu.. muka sedih jek..

Fred - Day 1

2009-01-19T14:30:00.005Z

Seminggu ni kite sibuk sikit.. kene ulang alik umah Vera. Vera and Huib pegi main ski, so I offer myself to feed Fred. Lagi pulak, dorang memang taknak hantar Fred kat catery, sebab Fred tak suka.

So smalam hari first kite jenguk dia. Tapi tak tido skali la.. dah malam tu kite balik umah sebab nak gi makan2 umah Shah and the geng. Arini lepas balik dpd skolah kite akan pegi tgk Fred balik, kasi makan sume.. and malam ni tido dgn dia kot! Syoknyeee... hihihi

Fred suke naik atas pangku.. manja btl.. takmo turun2 plak tu..

Muka dia mcm tak muat je kat cat feeder tu.

Yeyeyyy balik ni boleh main dgn dia lagi!!

more and more suprises!

2009-01-13T00:32:00.010Z

Okay.. haritu cerita kawan2 yang beli kek (profiteroles ekceli) and wish kite hepi bday. So ni la gamba profiteroles yg sgt sedap tersebut.. hihi..

Esoknye (9 jan, iaitu jumaat lepas) kite pun pegi school macam biasa. Balik dpd school tu agak lambat sebab ada meeting dgn Bob kesayangan.. :p Balik2 tu tengok budak2 ni sibuk masak2. Kite pun tanya la.. "banyaknya korang masak2 ni?"

Dorg jawab.. "saje je.. ingat nak ajak budak2 tu (shah and the geng) datang skali, sbb dh byk tlg kite sume all these while"

So fine la.. kite percaya je tanpa sebarang syak wasangka (lurus bendul btl). Kite pun naik atas amik towel, turun balik mandi. Lepas mandi tu dorang dah abis masak. Kite pun kemas2 la sikit2 dapur tu. Dorang masak banyak jugak, nasik tomato, dalca, ayam masak merah, bread butter pudding, and bubur pulut hitam.

Dalam pukul 9 lbh tu Shah and Arai dtg.. then Kak Riza pn balik dpd keje. So kitorang pn nk start makan2 dah, lapar gile perut masing2.

Tibe2 azah and kak nieza naik atas.. then dorang turun, berdiri kat depan kite (I was sitting on the sofa). Kite x pasan sbnrnye apa dorg pegang. Skali tengok2 kekkkkk. Tp I was really like soooo blur. haha.. kite terkebil2 je tgk kek yg dorg pegang.

Sampai la dorg sume cakap "Happy Birthday" ramai2..

Huaa.. rasa nak terpengsan plak. Surprise party legi skali for me??

Sangat terharu sebab kawan2 (The 67's Sugarbabes) sanggup masak2 untuk kite.. then siap ada tukang sponsor cake lagik (encik Shah), pastu ngan hadiah2 sume. Terasa sangat disayangi.. =)

Nasi tomato, ayam merah, dalca, bread butter pudding, bubur pulut itam

kek sumbangan encik shah.. tengkiu lah ye!

owh ini party akukah??? (muka ala2 *OMG!!*)

Hari Sabtu tu kitorg pegi Stoke-on-Trent memborong pinggan mangkuk (crita pinggan mangkuk akan di update pada entry lain). Pagi2 sblm pegi Stoke tu.. kak Riza kasi kite hadiah bday which is a lovely bracelet. Sgt suka!
Esoknye tuu (11 jan iaitu Ahad), seperti biasa semua org bermalas2an sebab dah penat menyusun pinggan mangkuk semalamnye tu. So kite pun bgn agak lambat la jugak. Lepas mandi2 sume tu, tibe2 sorang kawan call.

"Makcik, buat apa tu?? Kitorang nak dtg makan kek ni.. "

"Hahahha.. meh la.. " (I did not expect anything)

"Okay,.. betul2 ni tau.. kitorang dah sampai ni"

"Haaa?? korang kt mana ni??"

"Kat depan rumah"

Skali lagiii terkujat jap. Geng2 Kampung Dusun (hihihi) dtg secara mengejut tanpa apa2 notis. Surprise lagikah?? hahah.. nasibb la dah siap mandi2 sume. Kalau kite pegi bukak pintu ngan tahi mata sume apa cer??

So kawan2 dpd birm tu (Zatil, Zahran, Nabil) dtg nk wish and celebrate bday kite. Dorang kasi kite bday presents jugak..
Thanks to all.... tak tau cmana nak cakap terima kasih.

Betul2 terharu.. Sumpah! =)

happy birthday to me!

2009-01-09T01:40:00.008Z

Sebenarnye memang taknak berblogging selagi tak anta kite punye first year report.. tp terpaksa jugak ni (terpaksa ke.. ?) :p

Tadi balik dpd skul, sume orang takde.. kak yati sorang je ada kt umah. Kak Yati nk balik mesia sabtu ni.. so dia tgh bz kemas2 barang. Yang lain2 ntah pegi mana.. kite tnya kak yati, kak yati pn x tau..

Then kite call kak nieza.

"Akk, semua org pegi mana eh?"

"Kitorg gi beli groceries ni kt Sainsbury"

Ooo patut ler.. so kite pn mandi2.. lepas mandi tu dorg sume dh balik. Then makan2 n tgk tv. Lepas tu kite naik atas, sambil buat keje borak2. Sampai la masa tu dh dkt nk kol doblas.. kite terasa nk gi bilik air. So turun la bawah.

Kuar2 je dpd bilik air.. pelik apsal sume org ada kt bawah ni. Baru je nak tnya yang dorg sume tgh tggu nak masuk toilet ke..

Tapi tibe2 kedengaran lagu hepi birthday.. hihihih... sgt terkejut dan terharu. :p Tak sangka la pulak dorg siap belikan kek bagai. Dpd siang tadi kite dpt mesej and call utk bday wish. Petang td ayah, mama and syahmi dah nyanyikan lagu bday jugak dlm tpon. Sgt best lah! hehe..

Pastu ada dpt hadiah & kad jugak dpd kawan2, dpt kad dpd adik.. shayangg u all!

Dah tua setahun lagi.. cmana ni.. harap2nye perangai pn makin baik lah.. hihii..

p/s : thnx kawan2.. for the cake, presents, cards, and wishes dpd jauh dan dekat.. =)

yeyeyyy nak tgk pantomime...

2008-12-20T22:57:00.003Z

Hoyehh.. esok nak tengok pantomime kt Birm.. cite Robin Hood.. so pasni kalau Bob tanya lagik bleh la eksen2 kt dia kata dah tgk.. hihii..

Hah, pasal previous entry tu sorilah ter emo plak.. :p

Mencii btl laa esok sume train kene transit kt Derby, malas gileee laaaa. Pantomime tu dah la kol 1 tghari.. lepas abis tu tak tau nak membuat aktiviti ape ngan zatil kt birm tu.. huhu. Cik tu nak gi Glasgow pagi2 isnin, so xleh nak berpoya2 sgt.. hihii.

p/s : Maeyi, tag tu aku jawab dalam next entry eh.. ehehhehe

such a touching story

2008-12-14T15:30:00.002Z

It's really a touching story.. quite long but read patiently! (s0b.. sobbb.. )

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene of ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life.

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This
was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls’ eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife
said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn’t t help doing so. I moved Dew s hands aside and said,

You go select some furniture, O.K.? I've something to do in the company. ?Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew s body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slight joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn’t t imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking with her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more. When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said.

She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know
what I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a serious topic calmly.

She didn’t t seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? . I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called
answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! .

At that night, we didn’t t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could
hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated
that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

A late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again. She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn’t t want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month s time before divorce, and in the month s time we must live as normal life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn’t t want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day? This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember . You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this
month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.

I told Dew about my wife s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face
the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So
when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words
brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed
her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don t tell our son.

I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her
blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There
were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms.
The visualization of Dew became vaguer.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking,
etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn’t tell Dew about this.

I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, it seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, All my
dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not
because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously I reached out
a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it’s time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an
essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made
me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, “Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old”.

I held her tightly and said, “Both you and I didn’t notice that our life was lack of such intimacy”.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door.

I said to her, “Sorry, Dew, I won’t divorce. I’m serious”. She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of life, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst out crying. I walked downstairs and drove to the office. When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me to write the
greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until we are old.

Christmas dinner

2008-12-13T15:10:00.006Z

Smalam ada christmas dinner.. best la jugak.. hihii.. tu satu gamba je elok.. lain sume gamba goyang (tp bukan bermakne kite kepale tingtong malam itu okeh) :p Malam tu byk borak2 ngan Surge and Mike (dua2 ada dlm gamba tu).. tp topiknye sgt la bosan.. ada ke cite pasal ekonomi la.. politik la.. aisehh..

Baru lepas chatting ngan kak wani.. cite2 pasal dinner smalam. Ada ke kak wani igt kite ni bob pnye fav student? takde maknenye la kak.. hahaha.. bob ni msti slalu bengang ngan kite kot, tapi sebab dah kite ni student dia.. dia sabar je.. syg bob.. hahaha..

wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:06:37 AM): tuh bob suke tuh ye
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:06:38 AM): huhu
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:06:59 AM): ala.. bob tu mana la ada suka kak
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:04 AM): tp dah sy ni student dia
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:10 AM): dia terpaksa la suka jugak
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:13 AM): hehe
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:07:51 AM): takk..
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:07:59 AM): zaifa ni fav student dia
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:11 AM): hahahaha
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:13 AM): akk ni aihhh
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:19 AM): apsal akk kata cmtu?
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:09:20 AM): tgk aje dah tau laaa zaifa

(jgn gelakkan my ym id okeh.. tu id sejak skolah2 tu.. hihii )

Owh patutlah.. aritu Stella perli Bob.. suruh Bob reserve kan satu desk kat ofis dia tu kasi kite dok satu opis je ngan dia.. hahaha. Adekah agaknye sume org pasan yg Bob tu 'sayang' kite ni? Muahaha.. sgt klaka! Patutlah jugak.. Mike cakap camni "she's a star student, excels in everything so far!" masa kenalkan kite kat post-doc staff yg baru, Amer. Tu takde lain la tu.. mesti Bob yg punye cite.. "Zaifa has done this.. zaifa has done that.. " aiyoooo padahal mende2 tu punyelah sikit, dah la tu banyaknye buat sama2 dgn Bob.. dia ni suke promote kite la. Terasa malu sendirik sbb tak betul langsungg apa yg dia cakap tu. Cmana kalau pasni tak berjaya buat macam2? Haa tak ke malukan diri sendiri dan malukan Bob je tu? Huaaaa...

Igt dlu masa my abstract had been accepted for the Chile conference.. dia pegi bgtau Mike sume.. Mike ni director of the research centre la, so Mike ni forward la email kat orang2 lain.. adoii.. tibe2 esoknye sume ckp Congrats.. haa tu baru abstract tu, lum lagi paper.. hahahaha.. klaka kan.

Habis cite Bob.

Suhu skarang dh makin sejuk.. kite rasa kalau kene tinggal kt luar tu without coat malam2.. pagi tu mesti dah jd arwah kot.. tak pun nyawa2 ikan.. hehe.

Kite been bz writing report.. tp mcm x abis2.. dah type sikit, dok cek emel la chatting la.. aihh. Kan best kalau kite ni sentiasa ada momentum utk study kan? Tak payah la paksa2 diri.. and x payah rasa terpaksa bile kene study... hihii.

Lagi best jugak kalau dalam dunia ni mmg 'study' and 'keje' tu tak wujud.. sume org sentiasa berehat2.. wahh heaven btl.. hahaha.. :p

p/s : zatil, ada macam tepung gomak tak bedak revlon tu?

pagi raya

2008-12-08T08:14:00.003Z

Dah raya dah.. kite tak mandi lagi ni.. sat lagi nak mandi n bleh la solat sunat raya sorang2..

Skang ni kite tengah bukak takbir raya kt imem.. hihii.. takpe, dah tak sedih dah.. dah masuk 3 hari kite jadi hantu kat umah ni sesorang. Semalam ada kak ros anta ketupat ngan lauk2 dia sket. Terharu betul..

Pasni nak kene siap2 pegi skolah.. arini CGS punye meeting.. so kene la present progress masing2.. apa nk present ntah ni.. bantai je lah.

Slamat hari raya kawan2..

p/s : apa la agaknya mama masak utk raya ni kan.. smalam kite tepon dia xnak kasitau.. takut org nangess la tu.. hahaha..

weekend dan raya yang menyedihkan

2008-12-05T18:18:00.005Z

Juz got back from school. Sedih.

As everyone knows the EidulAdha is gonna be this Monday. And guess what, I am now at home alone. Kak Riza and Kak Yati have gone to London this afternoon and they will be celebrating the Eid in the Malaysian Hall. Kak Nieza and Azah will be in London as well because their mother is coming. It's not that I don't wanna join them celebrating raya in the malaysian hall but I had a meeting this morning, and there's gonna be another meeting this Monday. And the fact that they left today and only going back here on Monday evening makes a constraint for me.

And the worst part is, the living room is full of mess. It has been 2 days the painters doing the kitchen and bathroom painting. And all the stuff in the kitchen and bathroom are put in the living room temporarily... and since the living room is quite small, they're everywhere! So the term "home sweet home" is not valid during my weekend and that makes me stressed even more.

I am now thinking of going to somewhere.. yupp.. alone! Still thinking where to.. but I have few in mind. Yeah... perhaps a survivor weekend?

P/s 1 : raya puasa aritu takde la sedih pun... sebab semua org ada kt rumah.. tp kali ni walaupun raya haji, bile fikir bangun pagi2 xde org kt rumah rasa macam nak nangis je.. :(

P/s 2: Kalau dah x tau nak pegi mana sangat, marathon je cite apa2 kat cineworld tu..

tiring day

2008-12-05T01:08:00.003Z

I am so tired. The whole day I've been evaluating undergrad students' presentation, in a crowded hall.. asking nasty questions to them, reading the posters with loadsssss of text.. and then I missed my Maghrib. Good.

And everybody was too lazy (including me) to cook for dinner, and we againnn ordered the take-away. I was hungry but I didn't finish my meal. I wanted, but I couldn't.

And I am so sleepy now, but I cannot sleep. My mind keeps thinking about something. Tibe2 rasa macam nak lempang orang. I better off now.

Have Heart Project

2008-12-03T22:33:00.007Z

Korang2 yang baik hati.. jom kite menjayakan program untuk adik2 comel ini... klik kat bawah ni and see if korang boleh contribute apa2 okay!

Have A Heart Project

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I hate Monday

2008-12-01T02:19:00.004Z

Dah pukul 2.19 pagi ni.. kite belum tido.. tp bukannye buat keje. Dari tadi dok dengar lagu la main sudoku la..

Td dinner kitorang order take away je.. malas nak masak harini.. hihii. Pastu sambil2 makan tengok cite I'm Not Single, kak Nieza bawak dvd dpd Mesia.. kite suke jugak cite tu.. comel dan sweet. Cite yang ringan.. tengok santai2 je x payah fikir banyak2. Cite tu pelakon dia Lisa Surihani dengan Farid Kamil. Mmg ler ada adegan2 yg x logic.. (biasalah tu), tp kire okay lah.

Baru je cek email Bob nih haa.. "More fun and games? perhaps we chat tomorrow?"

Aihh ada lagi laaaa dia nak start tuu.. aih Bob.. Bob.. hari2 windu kite la dia nih.. isk..

P/s : Kenapa la bile hari Isnin je kite teruss rasa malas gile haa.. agak2 kalau kite ponteng esok aci tak? :p

Kembalilah kasih

2008-11-29T02:36:00.004Z

Comel sangat dia nyanyi lagu "Kembalilah Kasih".. hihii..

Dah banyak version dah si comel nih nyanyi.. sesaja aku carik kat youtube. Kemain lagi dia nyanyi siap lentok2... dulu memula dpt video dia masa kt utm, lagu Anuar Zain jugak. Agaknya mak dia ni mmg kipas-susah-mati (die hard fan) Anuar Zain la ni..

Nanti anak aku agak2 pandai nyanyi lagu apa ah?

P/s : Mama kata dulu masa Syahmi dalam perut mama slalu baca Quran kuat2, bagi dia dengar. Kite tanya mama masa aku dalam perut mama baca x? Mama kata tak ingat.. hahaha

What do I feel?

2008-11-28T11:58:00.004Z

It's 12 pm.. and I have just had a chat with Bob, the quick one. Well.. 30-minute-chat is considered short if it's with Bob.. he's got loads of ideas! So now we do have some plans for the EGU conference in Vienna. Bob said that the main point is to put my name somewhere and to make my potential external examiner recognise me.

He is such a great supervisor. He does everything he could to help me. At some points I really feel bad that I don't give the full swing. I delay my works, I ignore his words sometimes (how bad I am).. :(

And what he said yesterday made me feel even worse..

"You're far different from the others"

"How do I differ? " (I was expecting something bad..)

"You're good, you always put your mind thru.. and that's impressive!"

I feel bad :(... because I'm not that good. At least not as good as he thinks. Hmm.. I don't want to let him down one day. No!

owhh i lap u..

2008-11-27T02:28:00.004Z

Always lap u.. hihihiiii. Knape lah skarang makin kurus ni.. windu kat Cik Epa eh? :p

Teringat dolu2 time skolah.. kemain fanatic lagi kite. Siap ada scrapt book wa cakap lu... hahaha. Pantang je ada nampak muka zamani sume tok nenek majalah kite beli, bukan sebab nk baca.. nak gunting muka dia je. Hahahah..

Masa dia blakon cite Bara tu siap tgk kt wayang.. beli cd lagi. Pastu asik replay byk2 kali part dia ada je... macam angau ke hape ntah. Kalau nampak dia kt depan mata masa tu harus pengsan kot. Skarang dah besar... tp kalau dpt jd gopren zamani pun okeh jugak eh.. :p

the wonderful yet not so productive day!

2008-11-26T16:17:00.006Z

Cuaca harini sangat cantik.. ada matahari.. but still cold though, cuma rasanya smalam lagik la teruk kot.

Pukul 8 pagi aku pegi gym... last time pegi pun minggu lepas, dah gap 7 hari.. kalau aritu lemak terbakar pun skang dah develop balik.. haha.

Okay, balik dpd gym tu pukul 10.. aku mandi2 sebab nak tunggu Sainsbury pnye delivery.. kitorang shopping online je sebab malas nak angkat berat2 (lagipun nanti tak cun lah kalau tangan berurat2 angkat beras kan.. haha)

Orang Sainsbury tu datang pukul 12 lbh.. aku susun2 sket barang sume.. then aku konon2 nak pegi skolah. Tp lepas tu rasa mcm pening kepala plak.. daripada pagi tu sbnrnye.. aku rasa sbb smalam masa kat Birm kite overdose coffee kot.. sepanjang hari tu asik minum coffee je.. huaaa.

So sudahnya aku dok umah je harini.. nasib lah Bob takde carik.. dia tgh bz tulis buku.. hihiii..

Haa.. smalam masa kat Birm kite jalan2 kat German market, market yang ada setiap tahun bila nk kismas je.. pastu siap naik merry-go-round lagi tu.. aduiiyaii saba je la.. kalau la org melayu kat situ nampak.. tak ke memalukan dan menjatuhkan saham kite je.. Zatil laaa yang nak naikk (tibe2 menyalahkan zatil... hahahaha!)

Aku tak baper rajin nak amik gamba smalam.. malas nak kuarkan tangan dpd poket sbb masa tu sgt sejuk.. aku amik sikit je.. comel kan kucing tu? hihihiihii..

Birm esok?

2008-11-24T23:58:00.006Z

Pagi tadi masa siap2 nak pegi skolah.. aku tibe2 terperasan ada something dalam poket jeans.. pstu tengok2 rupenye ada thumb drive.. Aiyooo.. jeans tu jeans yang baru basuh. Maknenye aku dah basuh skali thumb drive tu.. bijak tak?

Patut laaa aku carik2 tak jumpa dah lama dah.. rupanya dalam poket suar. aku siap dah beli yg baru 16gb pnye.. aihh..

Ingatkan yg dah ter'basuh' tu takleh guna la lagi.. tp skalinye cek2 boleh plak.. hihii.. cayalah!

Esok pagi2 nak teman kak Shida sampai airport Birm.. cik tu nak balik sebulan. Bestnyee.. I miss my family so much.. flight dia kol 1, maknenye check in kol 11 lebih la kot. Lepas anta dia tu aku x tau pun nk pegi mana.. lunch dengan Zatil sebelum balik Notts je la kot..

Rasa apa ntah kat dalam hati ni.. hmmm.. mencii! =(

The snowing Notts..

2008-11-23T22:55:00.008Z

Pagi2 tadi.. pkl 6 lbh Zatil call..

"Kak Efa.. bangun.. bangunn.. Notts snow skang"

"Eh, mana Zatil tau plak ni?" (budak kecik ni ada kat Birm.. sah2 la kite kompius cmana dia leh tau snow kat Notts plak kan)

"Chaq ada kat Notts laaa.. dia yg kasitau saye"

"Owhh.. okeh2 akak pegi tgk.. tengkiu ye"

Nampak macam tebal.. tapi tak pun...

Dgn Kak Shidah.. (Sgt la terasa macam dah gemokksss)

Pastu aku pn dengan pantasnye bangun lompat dpd katil tgk kt tgkap.. aihh gelap ni.. x nampak pape pn.. xpe la pagi nnt je la tgk.. pastu aku pn masuk balik dalam duvet, sambung tido balik dgn harapan bangun karang ada snow lagik.. (silly me).. hahaha

Pastu bile aku bangun.. dah lepas solat Subuh sume tu snow dah abes.. huaaa.. tp aku sempat je snap sket gamba2... tp snow kat Notts ni xde la tebal mcm kat Scotland tu.. hihiii..

rapuan semata

2008-11-21T01:49:00.004Z

Ok skang dah 1.50 am, lg seploh minit aku nak tido.. hihii

Dah made a deal wif zatil and capik nak tengok pantomime Robin Hood this December... hoyehh2! Dulu ada ajak sorg tu.. tp nampaknye dia cam tanak je (sbb dia buat2 lupa).. hahah.. okeh2 xpe.. kalau nk join bleh lg ni.. :p

Aku dah baper kali pegi kedai nak beli ada satu jacket Bench tu, tp asik2 abess je size. Tgk kat website pun dah abes stok.. iskk.. kuciwa la camni.. :(

Esok kunun2 nk bgn pagi sket la.. hmmm cmana ye nk wat supaya x tido lepas subuh.. sbb lepas je semayang tu kan mata aku cam otomatik jd ngantuk balik.. pstu seakan2 tindakan refleks lompat balik atas katil.. hihii..

Okaylah nak tido dah ni... tata.

Hot N Cold

2008-11-20T15:34:00.001Z

Skarang layan lagu ni pulak.. lagu Katy Perry.. hihii..

aisehh.. tidak berjaya.

2008-11-19T18:13:00.007Z

Keputusannye...

Aku tak berjaya menggunakan 2 jam dengan bermanfaat. Sebaliknya, aku buat ni :

- berchatting
- mendengar lagu
- makan jajan
- tengok shinchan kat youtube

dan beberapa lagi aktiviti tidak berfaedah yang tak mendatangkan keuntungan kepada aku . Maka, aku tak dapat la tgk cite KuMilikmu malam ni.. sebagai hukuman utk hari yg dah berlalu dengan sia2.. huhuu..

p/s : Kak Shida (cmana ye nak bezakan dua org kak shida ni), acam, maeyi, magec, zila, mijabolat, bai, kak ct, kak enu, dan geng2 kampung dusun utm yg salu tgk blog ni.. bulat tak muka kite skang?? :p

M A L A S

2008-11-19T15:05:00.005Z

Aduiiyaiii.. knape la dpd pagi lagi aku tak buat ape2 pun ni.. dah la tak pegi skolah plak tu..
Pagi tadi cek emel Bob, pstu cepat2 tutup.. hihiii..

Dpd smalam aku trase nak makan coklat gile2.. tp malas gile nak pegi kedai. Smalam cmana ntah bleh lupa nak singgah Boots ke Student Union shop ke masa pegi skolah tu.. makanya sampai harini asik terfikirkan coklat je...

Dengan tak semena2 aku baru je tepon kak Shidah, dia kat skul la macam biasa.

"Kak Shida, bleh tlg belikan coklat kat vendor machine tu tak sebelum balik nnt ?"

"Boleh.. nak brape?"

"Tiga.."

Tamak x kite? Hahahh.. sangat teruk!

Skang ni aku nak memaksa diri buat keje. Daripada smalam memang x buat apa2 pun, biasa la aku kalau dah rajin sehari aku kasi reward kat diri sndiri berehat seminggu.. hahaha. Tp kali ni macam x bleh je.. sebab first year report kene anta tak lama lagi.. mati la.

Okeh, start dpd pukul 3.15 aku nak off tenet dan buat keje selama 2 jam. Kalau berjaya aku reward diri sendiri tengok cite KuMilikmu malam ni. Kalau tak berjaya.. errr.. aku tak makan coklat tu (jgn harap kite nak patuh yg ni.. :p )

Nanti aku update pasal kejayaan/kegagalan memaksa diri membuat keje ok! Mmuahh..

don't you see i'm working so damn hard Bob?

2008-11-17T03:36:00.006Z

It's almost 4 o'clock dah... ngantuk jugak mata aku ni haa..

Kak Yati dah bangun... dia nk gi France, for the research matter.. konon2 td aku stay awake ni sebab sambil2 nak tunggu untuk kejut kak yati la.. takut dia terlepas flight plak pagi karang.. tpnye skang ni tetibe mata ni dah macam x ngantuk plak..

Aku tak cek emel uni dah 3 hari.. skalinye tadi cek2 ada 6 emel Bob.. huaa Bob ni kot ye pun kasi la aku berehat2 time wiken kan.. kijam betul. Disebabkan emel itu ler aku kelam kabut jugak sebenarnye.. ada mende nk kene deliver.. semestinye untuk tujuan menghentam paper org lain lagi.. ahahah.. so noti!

Aku kene settlekan ada some equations.. pstu kitorg (Bob, me and Jerry) nk publish discussion paper lagik.. hahaha.. this is the 2nd time we make people hate us! Yg 1st discussion paper tu dah submit.. cuma belum publish lagi.. i wonder what the response would be..

Last time we attacked the Turkish hydrologists.. and this time another 4 Turkish would be surprised! I surely hate Bob et al (2008) paper if I were them! hahaha.. :p

Maeyi's (Eliya)Tag!

2008-11-13T23:08:00.007Z

Sebelum jawab tag cik maeyi yg comel itu, kite nak cakap congrats kat budak busuk kat bawah ni. Dia dapat 5A UPSR.. hihihiiii.. my brilliant lil brother! (Btw, his name is Syahmi)

Okay, ni nak jawab tag Cik Maeyi.. haha.. (padahal keje melambak2 lagi tak buat ni.. gatal jugak nak jawab tag.

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any 1 questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by and continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Say thank you (sarcastically)

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
turn back time.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
nobody.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
give some to my parents, go holiday, pegi spa.. facial.. manicure/pedicure sekerap yang mungkin, beli kucing yang paling comel, belanja kawan hari2.. (ni kalau apart from bersedekah dan pegi haji la ye).. hahaha..

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
I don't have a clue... really!

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I want both but it seemed that I always have either one. Whenever I got both, I lose'em.

7. Are you gorgoues?
I AM.. hahaha!~

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
walk away.

9. What do you pray each day for your loved one? I want to change this question to:

9. If one day your boyfriend/girlfriend has an accident, and he/she becomes blind would you still marry him/her?

YES

10. What takes you to love someone?

Nothing. It happens when my heart says something..

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
35-year-old single career woman? No no no.. ! 35-year-old career wife/mother? That's more like it..

12. What do you really want at the moment of responding to this tag?
I want to sleep! So sleepy and tired, dpd pegi gym pagi2 td sampai la dah balik dpd skul, belum rehat lagi nih.. huaaa..

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Maeyi a.k.a Eliya - my bestfren ever! She knows too much about me.. hahaha...

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
I don't mind makan nasik lauk telur hari2 as long as showered by love.. what a jiwang thought! kahkahkah.. (Zatil nak ketawa guling2 la tu.. ciss!)

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
comb my hair.

16. What’s the character must have in your partner?
Cool (but not cold) .. skali skala kasi jawapan jujur kan.. hahaha

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
Istikharah definitely. Tp x penah lagi terchentakan 2 org skaligus, I am such a loyal person, even to my crush! :p

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
Yes.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
At the moment I prefer being single.

20. Would you leave your family behind just to chase your dreams?
Yes if just temporarily, but NO if forever.

Mangsa tag seterusnya ialah :

1. Zatil

2. Cik Yaya

3. Encik peraih udang yang baru beli RAV4

4. Kak Siti mama Anis

5. Kak Syam mama Darwisy

Welcome To My Life

2008-11-12T00:42:00.003Z

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever want to run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work
It was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

"Boyfriend ko ke?"

2008-11-09T15:09:00.004Z

Masa aku post entry yg lepas tu, ada org tetiba tanya kite, "entry poligami tu cite pasal boyfriend ko ke?"

Ahahah.. ada ke.. korang ingat aku takde cite lain ke selain cite bopren ni haa..? :p Aku tetibe cakap pasal tajuk poligami tu pasal kawan aku beria2 kata yg orang pompuan ni mmg x redha dengan ketentuan Tuhan... tu yg aku panas ati tetibe tu. Jadi, entry tu memang TIADA kaitan ngan orang2 sekeliling aku , tu cuma thoughts aku generally. Hihiii..

Hmm.. smalam kat sini ada Nottingham Malaysian Games, mmg tiap2 tahun ada. Semua student2 seluruh UK ni datang ke Notts, ada macam2 games la.. football, badminton, netball, volley ball and even scrabble. Ada Malaysian Food Festival jugak.. macam2 ada jual.. nasik lemak, nasik ayam, sate etc. Smalam aku takde chance nk amik gamba.. sebab org ramai gile.. so aku mmg x amik gamba pun. Aku dok melepak kt Portland ballroom ngan Zatil je.. petang2 tu ngan Syafiq skali. Syafiq ni classmate kite masa kt mrsm dulu. Tetibe terjumpa balik masa open house umah Nabil&Zahran raya aritu.

Malam tu.. memandangkan takde aktiviti, kitorang pegi tgk cite Bond.. Quantum of Solace. Ok la.. best jugak.. tp part tgh2 tu ada mcm bosan sket.. sbb apa ntah, sbb ada byk scene bercakap2 kot. Hihii.. tp kire okeh la jugak.

Balik dpd tgk cite tu aku dah ngantuk gile.. lepas mandi2 sume tu terus tido sampai pagi. Nyenyak pulak tu.. :p

Pagi2 ni bukak2 emel, ada emel Bob plak.. aisehh.. nak kene anta keje lagi kt dia.. huaaa..

P O L I G A M I

2008-11-07T05:13:00.006Z

Salam kwn2. aku dah tertido dpd pukul 10 malam td, terbgn pkl 3 lbh.. keje banyak x siap.. hihi...

Pastu aku bukak ym, kebetulan ada plak sorg kawan ni buzz. So chatting la ngan dia kejap. Isunya ialah poligami. Haaa.. korang guys suka la kan? Hahah.. takpe2.. memang tak dilarang pun.

Aku memang tak penah kata yg poligami tu tak baik, apatah lagi nak menentang hukum tu. Lagi satu, tak terlintas pun kat hati ni nak masuk dalam group2 anti-poligami tu.

Cuma sebagai perempuan, untuk bersedih bila suami tu terpaksa dishare ngan orang lain, adalah tak salah jugak kan? Tapi kawan aku tu kata.. kalau bersedih maknanya tak redha. Aihh.. takkan la bersedih pun salah kot. Sedangkan Allah izinkan untuk perempuan kata taknak bila suaminya kata nak kawin lain. Cuma suaminya tak perlulah patuh kalau dia memang nak kawin jugak.

Tapi biasalah kan.. kalau lelaki tu namanya lelaki lah jugak. "Sunnah nabi" tu jadi macam lesen walhal sunnah2 yang lain tak pernah plak diperdulikan. Bila sampai ke sunnah yang satu tu, kemain lagi berlumba2. Tak la semua lelaki kan.. segelintir.

"Kenapa perempuan susah sgt nak terima takdir?"

Bukan tak redha, bukan taknak terima takdir. Cuma kadang2 perempuan ni tak dapat fikir kat mana salah dia, kat mana kurangnya dia... tak sempurna ke layanan dia.. tak cukup cantik ke dia.. biasalah, perempuan kan..

Bila perempuan menangis, maknanya hati dia tu luka. Sakit. So dia menangis lah. Tapi bila menangis, lelaki kata taknak terima ketentuan takdir plak. Kalau tak izinkan kata isteri ingkar. Bila dah izinkan, kata tak ikhlas.

Korang penah baca cite Nurjannah tak? aku suruh la kawan aku tu baca. Cuba korang baca.

Then aku cakap la, Nurjannah tu redha, dan dia terima ketentuan takdir. Bila suami dia nak kawin lain, dia sign je.. tak tanya pun sebab apa. Cuma lelaki tu salahgunakan keredhaan isteri dia.

Pastu kawan aku kata, "Nurjannah tu dari awal tak redha, senyum x ikhlas.. so perkahwinan tu dah xde roh".

Dalam cite tu, Nurjannah siap tolong gosokkan baju pengantin suami dia, salam cium tangan, siap pesan jaga diri baik2 kat suami yang nak pegi kawin lain tu. Hari2 dia x abaikan tggjawab dia. Cuma satu je, dalam cerita tu, lepas suami dia kahwin, senyuman Nurjannah jadi hambar. Dah takde senyuman manja.

Kawan aku kata, "kenapa dah takde senyuman manja pulak kalau redha?"

What does a guy expect from a woman? Dah izinkan kawin tu pun salahnya pada perempuan jugak. Senyuman manja tu korang rasa boleh dibuat2 ke? Dah kalau memang takde rasa nak manja2, takkan nak buat2 plak kan.. nanti kang cakap plak "nampak sangat tak ikhlas".

Lelaki selalu kata... susah nak ubah pandangan perempuan ni. Suka ikut emosi.

Betul. Tak ada satu perempuan pun dalam dunia ni yang redha 100% kalau suami dia kawin lain. Kalau izinkan pun, dalam hati dia mesti terluka. Tapi lelaki ni, dia takkan nampak luka tu, air mata isteri dia tu dah tak berapa ada value. Sebab dalam hati dia dah ada orang lain. Kalaupun isteri pertama tu masih ada, mungkin portionnye kat sudut2 je.

Tapi bila cakap pasal ni, hujah dorang yang paling kuat memang tu lah kan.. sunnah nabi.

Betul.. memang sunnah. Tapi pernahkah Rasulullah menggalakkan? Dan ada ke ayat dalam Al-Quran yang menyuruh/menggalakkan poligami ni?

Jawapannya, TIADA.

Poligami ni sebernarnya ialah satu peng'had'an. Bukannya satu penggalakan. Korang boleh baca sendiri kat sini.

Benarkah Poligami digalakkan dalam Islam?

Again, aku tak menolak hukum. Kite bukan anti-poligami. aku tak menentang konsep poligami. Cuma, aku ada hak untuk bersedih kalau kite yang kene kongsi suami kite dengan orang lain.

Lelaki ni cepat lupa kan.. kalau satu masa tu dia kata dia sayang kita, dia takkan duakan kita, kitalah satu2nya... sesungguhnya kenyataan itu hanyalah benar pada waktu ia dilafazkan sahaja. Lepas2 tu dia akan berubah. Love does fade away, doesn't it?

P/S : Kepada lelaki2 yang nak kawin lebih daripada satu tu, you are allowed to. But don't force us to smile when our (woman) heart is crying.

nak pegi skolah ke x ni.. aishhh..

2008-10-29T08:47:00.004Z

Skarang pukul 8.50 pagi.. aku rasa mcm malas nak pegi skul la harini.. huaa.. weather forecast kate arini freezing.. rs mcm x sanggup je nak berjalan kt luar tu.. ahh banyak lah kau punya alasan efa! hihiiii..

Hmm.. ok fikir lagi.. nak pegi ke x... nak pegi ke x..

Still can't make up my mind. Will keep on thinking.. :p

I am having my nescafe rite now, sitting on my fav sofa, in front of tv, with laptop on my lap. How wonderful it would be if today is saturday.. or sunday.. or any bank holiday.. aihh knape la aku asik2 fikir nak bercuti je ni..

1st chapter of my 1st year review is to be submitted today.. approximately 2000 words.. tp aku rasa yg aku type tu x sampai seribu pn lagi.. ahahah.. slambau je. Selagi blm kol 12 malam.. kire masih lagi harini kan.. hihiiiii..

cerita wiken, semalam dan harini.. :p~

2008-10-28T12:36:00.022Z

Cerita Wiken..

Ari Sabtu tu aku pegi rumah Vera, had a breakfast there, ala... English breakfast je.. so takde la susah mana pun Vera nak prepare. Thanks Vera and Huib!

Lepas tu aku main2 dengan Fred yang sangat comel.. comel gileee.. gile pun x comel camtu.. hikhik.. :p Fred ni manja sesangat, aku cuddle dia pastu dia mcm nak tido je.. rasa macam nak culik je dia bawak balik umah.. x tau nak kata cmana, he's so big, he's so soft, he's cute, and his eyes are so damn beautiful! Cuba tgk kt gambar tu.. besar kan dia?? Kalau Vera taknak, sumpah aku angkut bawak balik umah.. hihi..

So lepas main2 dgn Fred tu kite balik umah, kebetulan dorg nak pegi shopping, so dorg drop aku je la on the way tu. Bile balik2 umah, kak Riza nak kuar pegi shopping.. dgn x semena2 aku pun teruja nak ikut skali.. hahaha.. teruk gile! Aku abis byk jugak la.. kembali kepada tabiat lama mengumpil bracelet.. aishhh!!

Lepas balik dpd membazir duit tu, kak Ros call ajak makan2 bihun sup.. so lepas solat Isyak, aku ajak housemates sume pegi.. bestttt.. burrpppp =)

Hmm.. ari ahad tu apa aku buat eh? Haaa.. ari Ahad shopping lagi.. tp kali ni x membazir, sebab shopping groceries, lepas abis shopping tu melepak kt Starbucks jap sblm balik. Sempat lg grab satu baju.. dushh.. dushh!

So.. dah habis cerita wiken..

Cerita Isnin

Isnin tu, iaitu semalam, aku bangun awal.. awal tu xde la awal sgt.. macam biasa bangun Subuh la.. cuma aku kata awal tu sbb aku x tido balik lepas solat tu.. hihihiii..

So aku pegi skul agak awal la.. pkl 9 lbh.. sbb biasanye aku tgahari baru muncul kat skul tu. Aku breakfast ala kadar je kt ofis. Oat dgn youghurt tu..

Hari yang agak productive la jugak.. aku siap writing beberapa ratus patah perkataan.. baper ratus tu jgn tnya la ye.. sbb sikit je.. hahaha..

Balik umah pukul 5 lbh.. sejuk gile kt luar. Winter dah start la ni.. aku pakai sweater nipis je smalam. Nasib je aku tak beku sebelum sampai rumah. So harini aku mengambil langkah awal iaitu pakai winter coat siap2..

Pastu smalam jugak, kak Shidah masak ikan kukus.. guna seabass tu. Sgt sedap tp sangat pedas. Dia tak igt yang cili beli kt Sainsbury's mmg pedas.. pulak tu dia abiskan 5 paket.. untuk kuah ikan kukus tu. Bile start makan je sume org senyap.. senyap tahan pedas.. hahaha! Aku ni asik2 cite org lain masak je kan.. bile plak aku nak masak.. aku x reti masak.. sori la.. :p

Cerita hari ini..

Harini aku x tido jugak lepas subuh.. lg satu sbb smalam aku tido awal gile.. pkl 10 dah tido. So bgn pagi tu mmg dah x ngantuk lgsung. Tapi aku pegi skul lambat pulak arini.. dok tgk tv cite My Wife and Kids punye pasal.. isk..

Pg tadi jugak.. aku kelam kabut carik thumb drive aku .. x tau letak mana.. sedihnye kalau ilang.. dah la yg tu 4Gb pnye.. huaaaaa... mana dia ni.. :(

Hutang cerita!

2008-10-27T10:24:00.003Z

Kenapa tajuk hutang cerita pulak.. hihii.. :p

AKu banyak nak citer.. pasal aktiviti wiken baru nii.. pasal breakfast harini.. pasal Fred yang comel.. pasal harini aku pegi school awal2.. tapi x best pulak cerita kalau xde gambar.. so aku hutang you all la cerita tu ye.. lepas balik dpd skolah nnt kite crite. Promise! =)

hoyehhh!!! wiken dtg lagi.....!~

2008-10-17T21:36:00.006+01:00

Dpd ptg td keje aku asik makan jek.. Stella bawak cheesecake and lemon sponge cake.. they were absolutely yummy!.. yesterday was her birthday by the way.. the 45th birthday! Don't worry u're still young Stella.. :p

Balik dpd school dok melepak2 kt living room dengan housemates, skang ni dah dekat pukul 10 malam.. aku x mandi pn lg ni.. hahaha.. igt nak tido kejap, pastu bangun balik malam2 sket.. then baru mandi and buat keje.. hihii..

Perut aku kenyang gile lg nii.. td kitorg mengorder fastfood.. arini sume org malas nak masak.. CikTed apatah lagi.. :p Ni kire baru lepas memenuhkan perut dengan pizza, chicken wings, lasagna, and nuggets.. haha! Abislah kembang aku kalau camni hari2.

Td tgk tv.. ada cite Top 100 most annoying couples.. pastu aku ngan housemates dok memikir2kan sapekah annoying couples kt Malaysia.. hahahaha.. calon2nya ialah, errr.. xyah la bgtau kat sini.. nanti karang x pasal2 aku membuatkan korang pn teruja untuk mengutuk artis-artis itu.. hehe.

Hmm.. ok, dah nak pkl 10 malam, aku nak tido sat and bgn balik pkl 12 nanti.. hihiii.. tata.

What a good day!

2008-10-09T08:45:00.007+01:00

It's 8.45 am.. am feeling so good today.. hihiih.. Slamat ari raya sume.. ala x terlambat kan ni untuk wish u all..

I went to bed at 9pm last nite.. and woke up this morning at 6.30 am.. bangun2 dah takde rasa nak tidur balik. Dah dekat 10 jam tido gamaknya..

Hmm.. apa nak citer eh, yesterday I had a presentation. There were supposed to be 8 presentations but only 2 turned up including me. It was almost 100 peoples in the seminar room. And I was the first presenter! I didn't expect that there would be as many peoples as that!Just imagine how I felt.. nervous gile!

Tapi masa tu I had a thought like kalau orang tgk aku nervous lagilah malu... baik berpura2 relax.. hahaha..

And it did work.. really!. One of my collegues said I looked sooooo relax.hihihi.. sangat happy. I made some jokes so that they wouldn't fall asleep while listening the talk. And right after the session finished, one of the audience approached me and said "I was really enjoying your talk!" wahh hepinya.. I myself couldn't believe it!

Haa... apa lg nk cite eh.. haaaa.. pasal raya aritu. Kitorang masak punyelah sakan. CikTed masak rendang daging.. yg style n9 tu, pakai cili api. Siap tepon mak lagi malam raya tu tanya balik resepi.. itulah padahnye tak blaja awal2.. hehe. Tapi ok jugak la.. jadik ape! Azah masak kuah kacang, kak shida masak nasik dagang, then kitorang masak nasik himpit.. kak nieza tukang basuh pinggan je..pasal hari raya kedua tu dia dah nak viva. By the way, she has passed the PhD! Congrats Dr Nieza!

loads and loads and loads and loaddsssssss of work!!!

2008-09-12T13:53:00.004+01:00

Dah berhari2 aku tak update blog ni.. aku bz gile yg teramat sangat, nasib baik la bulan posa kan.. kalau x, nak makan pn tak sempat.. :p

Arini dah Jumaat, teringat masa keje dolu2 time2 ari Jumaat ni la paling best skali, hari paling gumbira dan semangat nak gi keje sebab esok dan lusanya cuti. Skang ni aku rasa cuti ke x ke sama je... kalau masa degree bleh gak la merasa cuti semester.. huaaaaaaa!!!

Smalam dok melayan lagu-lagu raya.. sadis btl. Tp aku x nanges la sbb lum terasa lg bahang2 lemang dan ketupat tu. nanti dah dekat2 nnt mau banjir umah tu dek kerana ahli2 yg berduka lara akibat berhari raya di kampung Robin Hood. huhuuuu..

Semalam jugak aku masak ayam masak merah... rasanya agak sedap la jugak. Tapi rasa-rasanya tu lah satu2nya masakan aku yg tak baper buruk rasanya.. hahaha! Tak kesah la kan.. hmmm..

Owh ye.. lupa nak cite.. aku dah pindah umah, bilik aku skang ni besar.. nnt2 aku kasi tgk okay!

Daaaaa!~~

Slamat posa dan slamat hari merdeka... !~

2008-09-02T00:31:00.008+01:00

Harap2 blm terlewat la nak wish selamat berpuasa to all my buddies.. korang jangan ponteng posa okay! :P

Alhamdulillah dah selamat puasa hari pertama.. dengan bau2 coffee dan muffin yg menusuk2 ke hidung... bau sandwich sejuk yang tak sedap tu pun macam menyelerakan, tp aku masih kuat iman.. x tergoda ngan sume makanan2 tu.. hahaha..

Siang td just had a meeting with Bob.. biasa la, setiap kali lepas meeting je rasa macam keje2 yang nk kene buat makin bertambah 18 kali ganda (exaggerating there :P).. huhuu. Deadline utk conference paper dah x lama.. 15 hb ni, maknanya lebih kurang 2 minggu je.. huaaa..

Arini macam sejuk dari pagi.. :(. Balik dpd skul terus gi city kejap untuk pick up spec yang dah order aritu. Aihh.. nak pegi ke kedai tu dah la tak banyak bas.. pastu aku plak mmg tak familiar kat area Castle Boulevard tu.. naik bas dah betul.. tmpt turun je salah. So terpaksa lah aku menapak dalam hujan yang tak brapa renyai (agak lebat) tu.. dah jd mcm tikus.. kesejukan sampai gigil-gigil..

Lepas amik spec tu aku pn berjalan balik lah dgn sabarnye (almaklumlah org posa kan kene byk sabar :P) .. pastu dengan tak semena2 hujan turun balik dgn lebatnye.. aisehh. Sambil2 jalan tu aku tengok2 la signboard tepi2 jalan tu, takut tersilap jalan kang sia-sia je menapak.. tengah aku leka tengok2 signboard tu, tibe-tibe..

Kedebushhhh..!

Adoiii laaa.. kurang asam jawa btl keter ni langgar lopak air tanpa memperdulikan aku yang berdiri kat tepi tu.. maka basahlah jeans aku ngan kasut2 skali.. huaaaaa nasib baik x nangess.. rasa nk baling batu jer kat keter tu.. nasib tak jumpa batu jer kat situ..

Apapun, kemarahan dan kegeraman aku terubat bile makan masak lemak cili api masakan Kak Nieza.. siap ada sambal belacan lagi.. sungguh heaven bukak posa arinih.. hikhik.. !~

Skarang ni dah pukul 12.44 am.. aku dah ngantuk.. tapi cmana nak tido ni.. rambut tak kering lagi.. hukhukk.. harap2 esok aku akan tersedar untuk sahur.. alangkah bestnye kalau pagi2 dpt makan masakan mama walaupn sekadar telur dadar.. =)

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jalan-jalan London.. hikhik..!~

2008-08-26T22:57:00.009+01:00

Azah, Kak Shidah and Kak Nieza while waiting for Iman (Iman kene dera beratur beli tiket)

Ntah camana la blh 'ter'jalan2 pulak.. mentang2 la Isnin tu bank holiday, so memandangkan cuti wiken + bank holiday masing2 takde aktiviti berfaedah, mula lah kepala masing2 berfikir nak membuang masa. So sebagai hasil pemikir2 tukang karut (kak Nieza, kak Shidah, Iman, Azah and me) kitorg pun decided utk pegi melepak2 kt London. Tempat persinggahan ialah umah Iman punya pakcik..

So pada Sabtu pagi tu, terpaksa la bangun awal.. tepat pukul 5 pagi, Azah meng'call' bilik dengan bertubi2.. heh, kalau tak camtu harus la tak bangun. Pkl 6.35am dah ada kat bus stop Salthouse Lane dengan semangat berkobar2, tapi xleh lawan la kak Nieza ngan kak Shidah yang pukul 6 dah tggu bas tu.. haha.. salute abess!

Train ke London pukul 7.35 pagi.. so sampai2 train station tu breakfast ala kadar. Transit kat Grantham pukul 8 lbh.. bla2 dipendekkan cerita, sampai London King's Cross station sebelum pkl 10 pagi.

Apa ntah nama market ni.. ala2 pasar tani kt Mesia..

Mula2 pegi London Bridge, ala.. bukan best pun.. stkt pegi amik gamba je. Lepas tu kitorg pegi Notting Hill.. ala kan ada citer tajuk "Notting Hill" tu kan.. aaa kt situ lah shooting. Kat situ tempat yg plg best ialah Portobello Market, ala2 macam Uptown tu. Rasanya it's one of the world's famous street market. So tu antara tumpuan Londoners and tourists lah. Ada macam2 barang.. brg2 antik, baju2.. aksesori... sgt heaven!

Azah & Kak Nieza yg excited..

Dah jalan2, perut masing2 pun tunjuk perasaan.. so kitorg gi lunch kat area situ jugak. Ada satu Malaysian restaurant named "Makan", huaaa terasa best gile sbb dpt makan nasik campur. Sume makan dengan penuh perasaan, including me. I had rice with kari ikan, sambal terung and spinach masak lemak (dia masak macam pucuk paku masak lemak).

Nasik campur.. huaaa sedap sampai nak nangess..

Keesokan harinya, sambung jalan2.. xde la byk tmpat sgt.. tp kire ok la.. we've covered Covent Garden,

Buckingham Palace and Oxford Street utk shopping-shoppingan.. hehe..

Big Ben

Owh.. sangat malas nk bercerita secara detail... let the photos tell the stories lah ok.. :p

Makan je la apa yg ada dalam beg.. kat garden tepi Buckingham Palace

Tengok.. itik pun pandai beratur.. isk..isk.. :p~

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Megi dan pewot yg lapar..

2008-08-19T17:48:00.003+01:00

Hmm.. it's 5.49 pm dah.. i've got no idea what to share with you guys as my life is more or less like usual today, nothing special.. hukhuk..!!

Still in school, pewot dah sedikit lapar.. bukak2 drawer takde apa.. coklat dh abes.. beskot pun abes.. kt atas meja ni ada bekas Pringles, goncang2.. erkkk dh abes jugak.. nk wat coffee maleh pulak pegi bilik Stella.. nape hari ni hari malas sedunia ke.. ke aku je yg malas.. huaaa...

Tadi sebelum pegi school, ada terbau Megi.. semerbak sungguh. Flatmate la tu masak megi.. si Cassy agaknye. Tak tau la jenama apa kan.. tp kalau bukan Maggi pun bau lbh kurg sama je. Skang ni dh terbayang2 Megi.. bukan megi je.. nasik goreng kampung jugak.. err bukan tu je, jugak terbayang asam pedas ikan pari.. sob..sob.. sesungguhnya aku merindui Malaysia.. huaaa..huaaa..huaaa... :(

p/s : Cik Mija ngan Cik Jila dh smpai sini ke.. lalala.. !~

Ho yehh hari Jumaat!!

2008-08-15T19:21:00.008+01:00

I had a supervision meeting with Bob this morning. It was good, we have been discussing the plan to finish the conference paper, well.. it is quite a problem to fit all the contents in not more than 10 pages coz my paper got loads of graphs and pictorial analysis. But yeah.. I'll make it anyhow.

Vera (my officemate) is leaving for her vacation with Huib (his boyfriend) today. So I will not have gossiping sessions with her like we do everyday for the next two weeks... I can imagine how boring it would be without her. Ohohooo...!~

Tomorrow Kak Shidah and me are going to Birm, we plan to go to one of the carboot in there, hope it's fun!

Really miss my friends so much!

P/s : Maeyi, Kak Ct and Acam, thanks for visiting my page.. hehehehe.. datang2 la salu ye..

Autumn is coming..

2008-08-14T10:16:00.006+01:00

Bismillah.. =)

Ekceli this morning I woke up extreme early. 4.45am what do you say? Hehehe.. mmg sesuatu yg menakjubkan la bg diri ini yg selalu terlajak tido.. huk..huk.. Tak tau apsal, not really had a deep sleep. Kekadang my brain just couldn't stop thinking, walaupun dipaksa2.. nak kata minum coffee tak pulak smalam tu, ye lah.. biasanya kalau minum coffee baru la otak asik berjalan je.. walaupn tgh tido..

So lepas solat Subuh (Subuh abis kol 5 lbh skang ni) tu sesaja on ym.. aisehh.. ada si cik Maeyi, lama dah tak borak. In fact bukan ngan cik Maeyi je lama x borak.. ngan sume kekawan la bleh dikatakan.. apa taknya, aku bangun, dorg tido.. dorg bangun, aku tido plak. So lepas mandi manda, aku bergosip sakan la ngan Cik Maeyi.. macam2 citer kuar... seronok sgt2!

Cite punye cite.. gosip punye gosip sampai la pkl 9 lbh dah.. dalam masa yg sama tu chat jugak dgn Adik.. heh, Adik salu bz memanjang je. Kalau takde keje pn dia akan carik keje, apa lagi la kalau mmg ada keje.

Dalam pkl 9.30 tu baru la aku gi berjalan ke skul.. jarang2 menikmati udara pagi, gara2 tido terlebih waktu hari-hari.. so hari ni dikira hari yang agak indah la jugak, kuar bilik dikala cleaner sedang membersihkan dapur, orang pn x ramai lagi lalu lalang kat pedestrian path yg aku ikut hari2 tu, and kt CGS ni pun memang tak baper ramai org lg, cuma sampai2 je dah dengar suara Stella tergelak sakan, ntah apa ler yg klaka.. heh.

So harini aku dikira awal la kan.. ho yehh.. !

2-3 hari ni dh mula cam rasa sejuk2 sikit.. tghari pun tak baper panas.. summer dah nak abis la ni.. autumn is coming, x lama lagi kene berbungkus balik.. aiyakk.

Kadang-kadang Allah hilangkan sekejap mentari..

kemudian Dia datangkan pula guruh dan kilat..

puas kita menangis mencari dimana mentari..

rupanya Allah nak hadiahkan kita pelangi indah..

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1 Aug - Summer 2008

2008-08-02T03:28:00.003+01:00

Well, not exactly sure what to write first as i have loads in mind, hopefully they are not gone by the time i finished this sentence.. =p~

Started my day in school quite early today, well 10am is quite early for me.. heee.. Walking from Beeston to University Park is such an activity I wouldn't do in summer if I do have any other options, but unfortunately I don't! As I pass by the Hallward Library, I dropped by for a grande latte, and met Vera and Didier there also were having their coffee. With that grande latte, I walked straight to Sir Clive Granger building (where my school is located), and headed to my office in CGS (Centre for Geospatial Science). Checking email is always the first thing I do, and so today. What was there? Phewwww..!~~ Congrats from Mike for the acceptance of my Hydroinformatic conference paper. In the afternoon Stella came and wished congrats as well. I wondered, "is being accepted for such a conference that great?? what are the congrats for?" Well yeah.. Mike said it is such a great achievement that one can possibly do in my prestigious first year. I'm really happy, and of course so grateful to what Allah has given me.

And yet, another email by Bob! (Bob is my supervisor). He sent me a journal paper to be reviewed. Before I forgot, let me tell you that Bob is an international journal reviewer for various fields especially hydrology. So he asked me to do the reviews of the paper that has just been submitted from India. Wohooo... he asked me to do that?? And I replied him, saying.. "Wow this is such a big task!!". And he said "Take that as a fun project!" (Fun lah sangattt.. aduii). I actually knew what were his purposes. He wanted me to have a view of critisizing other people's work, and also to have such a critical thinking. He is such a wonderful supervisor I would say..

Whatever it is, I feel honoured!

Following picture was taken during my walk home, about 8 pm.

The view is from the UoN west gate.

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