29 January 2012

supper to make you 'slim' :p

It's already ten past midnight. And I am so full with the 'calorieful' midnight supper I just had. I swear I won't weigh myself in a couple of days.

I should actually be already in bed by now. But since my only activity these days is lazing around, I sleep whenever I want, and pretty much wake up whenever I want. And so I slept at 7 something after Isya' prayer (Isya time is before 7) this evening, then woke up hungry at 11 o'clock. I took a quick shower to freshen up, and went to the kitchen to get something to eat.



I found nothing except half loaf of bread. The dull bread was not exciting enough. So I thought, I'd go for something richer (definitely with calories) like Nigella Lawson's Doughnut French Toast (ala, kalau macam kite punye roti celup telur tu, then salutkan dengan gula). Those went of course, with a cup of coffee.

That supper treat resulted in me being not only full, but wide awake. Let's just say I am 100% confident I will finish the James Patterson's 7th Heaven by 6 in the morning... what a way of life ey.

(This was taken when I was in a cafe yesterday killing time before going for my part-time job)

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24 August 2011

school sweet school

It is 11.20 pm and I am still at school. Believe me, being alone in a huge building is not fun. Walking along the hallway to get some coffee from the vending machine is even creepier. I have no choice. Really need to hand in another chapter this Friday. It has been dragging for so long. I can't even remember when was the original deadline.

I miss my home, my bed. Like really badly. Can you imagine how home-type I am? It has not even been twenty four hours since I left home. And it's not like I have a husband at home waiting for me (awww.. ). Ahahaha.

Owh and also, I only had (instant) noodle for fast-breaking. Padan muka kau, buat lagi keje last minute.


23 August 2011

pc crashing is a nightmare

It has been so long since I last wrote. Well, considered long for a blogger. But I am not a consistent blogger, so it is fine. Besides, I don't think anyone cares.. haha.

Last week, my pc crashed. I was freaking out as all my data and written stuff were in there. To make it worse, I had not been backing up the data since a month before the crash. Just imagine, if I lost all of them, I would lose a month worth of work. But thankfully, John (the IT technician) saved my life. Pheww~

Since then, I do the back-up every day. Lesson learnt.

Today was just another day. It is not that exciting anymore. Friends left (home for good) and some are leaving. Luckily I still have my housemate, kak Shidah.

I need to leave too. Missing my family badly. I really hope I can finish this phd as soon as possible. No. Actually, I desperately need to finish. :p

Eid this year will most probably be celebrated in lab, ..or office, ..or library, ...or in a messed up house unpacking boxes. Yup. We will be moving in to a new house (smaller) on the day before Eid. Exciting huh?

21 March 2011

spring comes back, and here are some updates..

Spring is in the air, flowers are blooming and the air is not too cold any more hence the gloomy misty days are slowly transferring to more colourful and cheerful days. No 5-6 layers of God-knows-what clothes any more, although I still could not afford wearing just one thin layer, but hey.. what a relief. ;)

My days have been sometimes hectic sometimes leisurely as usual. But the level of stress has been fluctuating crazily. Clock is ticking, I am getting old. Deadlines are approaching thus everything needs to be done needs to be done. Argghhh!

one of the sleepless nights in the library

My biological clock is completely messed up. I could sleep as long as 12 hours, or as short as 2 hours, or not sleeping at all. Some days I work crazily and some days I just don't do anything. I am very well aware that this is one bad way of organising life. In fact, it is not even one inch closer to organising. I know.

another sleepless night in my office

Apart from all depressing situations of mine, these are some events I really look forward to:

1. My parents are visiting this coming April 21st. Seriously can't wait!!!!!!!!

2. Owh and some times early April, Magec is coming to London and we're going to meet. Yeayy!!

3. My housemates and I are going for a trip to Germany, and then Turkey. End of April. Although we are all in tight budget, we are all tak-sedar-diri nak jalan2 jugak. ahaha..

4. My sister is getting married (don't ask when am I going to) in most probably November. Tak sabar nak jadi tuan rumah. :D

And besides all the exciting stuff, these are the nightmares:

1. The KPT allowance is ending in June. I will be runn
ing out of money. On supervision meeting last week, Bob asked me (knowing the situation), "what happens in June?" which then I answered, "I will be begging for food". No, that won't happen (hopefully).. haha.

2. I still have some experimental parts which include about 10 case studies to be finished before I can fully concentrate in writing up. But I hope I could finish this within a week (boleh la sgt?). Well perhaps with a sleepless week, it is possible. (Boleh ke kau x tidur2 kalau hari2 pun overslept? duhh)
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And this one, is the latest picture of me and kak Shidah. This was last Saturday at the MNight (Malaysian Night). I know, I know that I am getting wider. I blame the workload that always demand snacking activities. Definitely not my fault! :p

Okaylah kawan2 (bajet macam ramai je baca kan), till we meet again. ;)

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4 December 2010

beautiful night

Heavy snow hit us again...

in front of my house


our backyard


Nite nite everyone! *hugs*

2 December 2010

kerja gila yang sedap


Saya telah membuat kerja gila. Membuat ABC daripada snow. Sedapppppppp sehh.. :D


1 December 2010

last minute, clumsy, careless - a complete package of me



Today was bitterly cold, and today hasn't been my day. Not at all.

My student visa will expire on 31 Dec this year. Means in 30 days. Applying for a visa extension here in the UK is something that you won't fancy doing. Nobody would, I think. It consumes your time and your money,also cause you hassles and headache.

Two of the very important documents that I need for the application are the financial affidavit from my sponsor (KPT) which has been posted to me last Friday by KPT but has not arrived ever since, and also ATAS (Academic Approval Technology Scheme) clearance certificate, that I have to apply first by completing the ATAS form, which I have, and then need to be submitted, which I did today. Mind you, it takes up to 4 weeks in order to be granted this ATAS crap. (I heard some people got it within 2 weeks, so I desperately hope that I got mine in not more than 2 weeks too).

Now that I have submitted the ATAS application form, I thought it is a relief as I now just have to wait for the certificate before then I could proceed to submitting my visa application. Unfortunately it was not as easy as I thought it would be. Few hours back, when talking with my housemate (Kak Shidah) only then I realised that I did two mistakes in filling up the form.

First, there was a section asking for my previous granted ATAS certificate and the question where I did wrong was "The date you applied for your previous ATAS certificate". Then I thought, what the heck is this question? Why not just ask for the date the certificate was given instead of the date I applied? So with all the confusion, I went through my old emails, and found these few emails about this ATAS business. I couldn't find any email that I sent for the purpose of applying ATAS. So stupidly, I made a guess. Yes, a guess. So I checked the certificate, then I thought, it must had been few days before I got the certificate. And so it went with the 'brilliantly' guessed date.

Then the second mistake was of the "Referees" part. It needs two referees and I put both my supervisors here as referees without any idea that one of the referees has to be from the country of origin, ie Malaysia. So the form was submitted with these two stupid mistakes and there's no way that I could correct any of them.

To make things worse, the last date that I could submit my visa application through the university International Office is 15th Dec, and the International Office will open again at 4th January 2011 (dorg ni xmas mmg sakan, sama la mcm org Malaysia beraya) which means if I am refused the ATAS clearance certificate, I will have no time at all to apply a new one, hence there's a big potential of being refused the visa as well due to not providing complete supporting documents along with visa application form. And if I fail in the visa application, I have to apply another one which I am not happy to do because each application cost me 360 pound sterling (RM 1800).

Double pats on your shoulder, dear Zaifa. What a super excellent job you have done.


And the PhD has also got its way. Too many things to do with too little time. Research sometimes excites me though. Finding new things does cheer me up every time, and quite often too, I have a moment of "yeah I think I'm a genius" (haha :p ) But then, you know, the more you find, the more clueluess you become, hence the need to dig in more and more. The problem is, when do you stop digging? If you stop now, you will not know more., if you never stop, then your PhD will never end.

There have been seven emails from Bob since yesterday. And I have replied none. Seven emails, each about different things (papers, experiments, comments bla bla bla). Now with all this messed up visa stuff, then with my supervisor's emails, I am tensed. Really really tensed.

Today hasn't been my day. But thanks for being there...



Note: The snowy scenery pictures were taken using my phone on my way back home from school. Not a good quality, but worth a share.. ;)

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let it snow

A view from my bedroom window - captured last night


So here the winter comes..

Watching the snow falling from the sky always give me an indescribably amazing feeling. It's just so beautiful. Suddenly the (my) world seems so perfect.

A little too much exaggerated? I thought so.

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20 October 2010

sore throat + cough + runny nose

I went to bed at 11 last night. Time now is 2 pm, and i am still in bed. Obviously la belum mandi.

There's this time where lots of people got sick and it is this time of the year, where the university term has just begun, and students from all over the world came back including freshies. So I guess these 'internationally originated' viruses are what make me sick now.

Or simply the weather. Owh.. that makes sense too. It is still autumn but max temperature for today is 9 deg celsius, plus the possibility to drop to sub zeros at night. I don't even wanna think what the coming-soon winter will bring us.

Might as well because of the pressure. Erkk saya stressed kah? Ahahaa..

Sumpah. Tak under pressure pun.

Okaylah, saya mahu pegi mandi sekarang.

25 August 2010

lopesku..


Last Friday I made my first attempt on this kuih lopes untuk berbuka puasa. Resepinya, dahtentu disonglap dpd internet saje.. hehe. Ni sesaja nak menunjuk2 (kasi chance la pls) la kiranya, walaupun rupa x berapa nak cantik, tp rasa dia sedapppp.. :D

Dah terlanjur bereksen2 dgn kuih lopes ni, sy nak wish sekali selamat beribadah di bulan Ramadhan untuk semua kawan2, semoga kita semua mendapat keampunan Allah S.W.T *hugs*

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24 August 2010

KENAPA YAHUDI BIJAK

I found this somewhere in facebook. I thought it's worth a read. Let's all change for better future generation.. ;)

SATU MUHASABAH ; Kenapa Yahudi Bijak

by Danish Irfan on Monday, August 23, 2010 at 4:08am

Setelah berada 3 tahun di Israel kerana menjalani housemanship dibeberapa hospital disana, ada beberapa perkara yang menarik dapat saya perhatikan untuk dijadikan tesis ini, iaitu "Mengapa Yahudi Bijak?". Memang tidak dapat dinafikan ramai cendikiawan berbangsa Yahudi, dari segala bidang, Engineering, musik, saintis dan yang paling hebat ialah bidang perniagaan, dimana ia memang paling tersohor. Hampir 70% perniagaan di dunia dikuasai oleh kaum Yahudi, dari kosmetik, pakaian, pemakanan, senjata, perhotelan, perfileman di Hollywood dan sebagainya.

Ketika tahun kedua, akhir bulan December 1980 dan sedang saya menghitung hari untuk pulang ke California saya terfikir apakah sebabnya kaum Yahudi begitu pintar? Kenapa tuhan memberi kelebihan kepada mereka? Apakah ini suatu kebetulan? Atau olah manusia sendiri? Adakah bijak boleh dijana? Seperti kilang pengeluaran? Maka saya pon tergerak membuat tesis untuk Phd saya, disamping kebaikan untuk umat sejagat dan dapat hidup secara harmoni. Untuk pengetahuan anda tesis yang saya lakukan ini mengambil masa hampir lapan tahun, ini kerana untuk mengumpulkan data-data yang setepat mungkin. Antara data-data yang saya kumpulkan ialah pemakanan, adat resam, ugama, persiapan awal untuk melahirkan zuriat dan sebagainya dan data data tadi saya cuba bandingkan dengan bangsa dan kaum kaum lain.

Marilah kita mulakan dengan persiapan awal melahirkan zuriat. Di Israel, setelah mengetahui yang sang ibu sedang mengandung, pertama kali saya perhatikan ialah, sang ibu akan sering menyanyi dan bermain piano dan si ibu dan bapa akan membeli buku metamatik dan menyelesaikan masalah metamatik bersama suami, saya sungguh hairan kerana teman saya yang mengandung sering membawa buku metamatik dan bertanya kepada saya beberapa soalan yang beliau tak dapat menyelesaikanya, oleh kerana saya memang minat tentang metamatik, tentu saja dengan senang saya bantu beliau. Saya bertanya kepada beliau, adakah ini untuk anak kamu? Beliau menjawab, "ia, ini untuk anak saya yang masih didalam kandungan, saya sedang melatih otak beliau, semuga ia menjadi genius apabila dewasa kelak" Perkara ini membuat saya tertarik untuk mengikut perkembangan beliau seterusnya. Berbalik kepada metamatik tadi, tanpa merasa jenoh beliau membuat latihan metamatik sehingga beliau melahirkan anak.

Seperkara lagi yang saya perhatikan ialah pemakanan beliau, sejak awal mengandung beliau gemar sekali memakan kacang badam dan korma bersama susu, dan untuk tengah hari makan utama beliau ialah roti dan ikan tanpa kepala bersama salad yang digaul dengan badam dan berbagai jenis kekacang, menurut beliau daging ikan sungguh baik untuk perkembangan otak dan kepala ikan mengandungi kimia yang tidak baik yang dapat merosakkan pengembangan dan penumbuhan otak anak didalam kandungan. menurut beliau ini adalah adat orang orang yahudi ketika mengandung dan ianya menjadi semacam kewajipan untuk ibu ibu yang sedang mengandung mengambil pil minyak ikan.

Ketika saya diundang untuk makan malam bersama orang orang Yahudi, perkara pertama yang saya perhatikan ialah menu mereka.. Setiap undangan yg sama perhatikan ialah mereka gemar sekali memakan ikan (hanya isi atau fillet) dan biasanya daging tidak akan ada bersama dimeja jika ada ikan, menurut mereka, campuran daging dan ikan tak elok dimakan bersama. Salad dan kacang adalah suatu kemestian, terutama badam.

Seperkara yang pelik ialah mereka akan memakan buah buahan dahulu sebelum memakan hidangan utama. Jangan terperanjat jika anda diundang kerumah Yahudi anda akan dihidangkan buah buahan dahulu. Menurut mereka, dengan memakan hidangan kabohidrat (nasi atau roti) dahulu kemudian buah buahan, ini akan menyebabkan kita merasa ngantuk dan lemah dan payah untuk memahami pelajaran disekolah.

Di Israel, merokok adalah taboo, apabila anda diundang makan dirumah Yahudi, jangan sekali kali merokok, dan tanpa malu mereka akan menyuruh anda keluar dari rumah mereka dam merokok diluar rumah mereka. Menurut saintis di Universiti Israel , siasatan menunjukkan nikotin dapat merosakkan sel utama pada otak manusia dan akan melekat pada genes, ini bermakna keturunan perokok bakal membawa generasi yg cacat otak ( bodoh atau lembab). Suatu penemuan yg dahsyat ditemui oleh saintis yg mendalami bidang genes dan DNA. Para perokok harap ambil perhatian. (Ironi nya, pemilik pengeluar rokok terbesar adalah ...... tekalah sendiri..!)

Perhatian saya selanjutnya ialah melawati tadika mereka, Pemakanan anak anak tadi cukup dikawal, makanan awal ialah buah buahan bersama kacang badam, diikuti dengan menelan pil minyak ikan (code oil lever) Didalam pengamatan saya, kanak Yahudi sungguh bijak dan rata rata mereka memahami 3 bahasa iaitu Hebrew, Arab dan Inggeris dan sedari awal lagi mereka telah dilatih bermain piano dan violin, ini adalah suatu kewajipan. Menurut mereka bermain musik dan memahami nota notanya dapat meningkatkan lagi IQ kanak kanak dan sudah tentu bakal menjadikan budak itu bijak. Ini menurut saintis Yahudi, gegaran musik dapat stimulate (semacam senaman untuk otak) maka itu terdapat ramai sekali genius musik terdiri dari kaum Yahudi.

Seterusnya ke darjah 1 hingga 6, anak anak Yahudi akan diajar matematik berkonsepkan perniagaan dan pelajaran sains amatlah diberi keutamaan. Di dalam perhatian peribadi saya, perbandingan dengan anak anak di California, ianya jauh berbeza tentang IQ dan boleh saya katakan 6 tahun kebelakang!! !. Segala pelajaran akan dengan mudah di tangkap oleh anak Yahudi. Selain dari pelajaran tadi sukan juga menjadi kewajipan bagi mereka dan sukan yg diberi keutamaan ialah memanah, menembak dan berlari, menurut teman saya ini, memanah dan menembak dapat melatih otak mem fokus sesuatu perkara disamping mempermudahkan persiapan untuk perhidmatan negara.

Selanjutnya pemerhatian saya menuju ke sekolah tinggi (menengah) di sini murid-murid ditekan dengan pelajaran sains dan mereka digalakkan mencipta produk. Segala projek mereka walaupon kadangkala kelihatannya lucu dan mengarut, tetap diteliti dengan serius apatah lagi ianya berupa senjata, perubatan dan engineering, idea itu akan dibawa ke institute tinggi di Politeknik dan Universiti.

Satu lagi yang diberi keutamaan ialah fakulti perniagaan. Saya sungguh terperanjat melihat mereka begitu agresif dan seriusnya mereka tentang perniagaan. Di akhir tahun di universiti, para penuntut dibidang niaga dikehendaki melakukan projek dan mempraktikkannya dan anda hanya akan lulus jika kumpulan anda (10 pelajar setiap kumpulan) dapat keuntungan sebanyak $US1juta! Anda terperanjat? Itulah kenyataan, dengan rangkaian seluruh dunia dan ditaja sepenuhnya oleh syarikat milik Yahudi, maka tidak hairanlah mereka dapat menguasai ½ perniagaan didunia! Siapakah yg mencipta design Levis yg terkini? Ianya dicipta di Universiti Israel oleh fakulti bisnes dan fesyen.

Pernahkah anda melihat cara orang Yahudi melakukan ibadah mereka? Salah satu caranya ialah dengan menggoyangkan kepala mereka, menurut mereka ini dapat mengaktifkan otak mereka dan menambahkan oksijan dikepala, banyak ugama lain di Timur Tengah, seperti Islam juga ada menyuruh umatnya menunduk atau menggoyangkan kepala, ini guna dapat mensimulasikan otak kita supaya bertambah aktif. Lihat orang orang Jepun, mereka sering menunduk-nundukkan kepala dan ianya sebagai adat. Ramai orang orang Jepun yg pandai? Adakah ianya sebagai kebetulan? Kegemaran mereka ialah sushi (ikan mentah). Adakah ini kebetulan? Fikirkanlah!

Berpusat di New York, Dewan Perniagaan Yahudi bersedia membantu mereka yg berminat untuk melakukan bisnes (sudah tentu untuk Yahudi sahaja). Jika mereka ada idea yg bernas, jawatan kuasa akan memberi pinjaman tanpa faedah dan pentadbir dari jawatan kuasa tadi akan bekerjasama dengan anda untuk memastikan yg perniagaan mereka menurut landasan yg betul. Maka itu lahirlah Starbuck, Dell, Coca cola, DKNY, Oracle, Perfileman di Hollywood, Levis, Dunkin Donut dan ada beratus kedai ternama dibawah naungan dewan perniagaan Yahudi di New York. Graduan Yahudi dari fakulti perubatan New York akan disarankan untuk mendaftar dipersatuan ini dan digalakkan memulakan klinik mereka sendiri dengan bantuan wang tanpa faedah. Barulah saya tahu mengapa hospital di New York dan California sentiasa kekurangan doktor pakar.

Kesimpulanya, pada teori saya, melahirkan anak dan keturunan yg bijak boleh dilaksanakan dan tentunya bukan semalaman, ianya memerlukan masa, beberapa generasi mungkin? Persiapan awal adalah ketika sang ibu mengandung, galakkanlah si ibu melakukan latihan matematik yg mudah tetapi konsisten di samping mendengar musik klasik (bagi umat Islam lebih baik diperdengarkan bacaan ayat suci Al-Quran - admin). Seterusnya ubahlah cara pemakanan, makanlah makanan yg elok dan berkhasiat yg baik untuk otak, menghayati musik sejak kecil adalah baik sekali untuk pertumbuhan otak kanak kanak, dengan bermain piano dan violin sudah tentu dapat melatih anak anak mencerdaskan otak mereka. Demikian juga sukan yg memerlukan kosentrasi yg tinggi, seperti memanah, bola keranjang, dart dan menembak. Merokok menjanjikan generasi yg moron (goblok) dan sudah tentu genes bodoh akan mengikut ke generasi si perokok. Lawatan saya ke Singapore pada tahun 2005 amat memeranjatkan sekali! Di sini perokok seperti di anak tirikan dan begitu susah sekali untuk perokok, dan anda tahu berapa harga sekotak rokok? US$ 7 !!! ini bersamaan perbelanjaan sehari untuk makan anda!! Saya puji sekali sikap pemerintah Singapore dan menakjubkan sekali!!! Dan seperti Israel ianya begitu taboo dan cara pentadbiran dan segi pembelajaran mereka hampir serupa dengan Israel , maka itu saya lihat banyak institusi pelajaran mereka bertaraf dunia walaupun hakikatnya negeri Singapore hanyalah sebuah pulau sebesar Manhattan !!

Anda mungkin musykil, benarkah merokok dapat melahirkan generasi goblok? Saya telah menemui beberapa bukti menyokong teori ini. Lihat saja Indonesia, jika anda ke Jakarta, di mana saja anda berada, dari restoran, teater, kebun bunga hingga ke muzium, hidung anda akan segera terbau asap rokok! Dan harga rokok? Cuma US$ .70cts !!! dan hasilnya? Dengan penduduknya berjumlah jutaan orang berapa banyakkah universiti terdapat di sana? Hasil apakah yg dapat dibanggakan? Teknologi? Jauh sekali. Adakah mereka dapat berbahasa selain dari bahasa mereka sendiri? Mengapa mereka begitu sukar sekali menguasai bahasa Inggeris? Ditangga berapakah kedudukan mereka di pertandingan matematik sedunia? Adakah ini bukan akibat merokok? Anda fikirlah sendiri.

Di tesis saya ini, saya tidak akan menimbulkan soal ugama atau bangsa, adakah Yahudi itu zalim sehingga diusir dari semenjak zaman Paraoh hingga ke Hitler, bagi saya itu isu politik dan survival, yg ingin saya ketengahkan ialah, mampukah kita dapat melahirkan generasi yg bijak seperti Yahudi? Jawapannya ialah mungkin dan tidak mustahil dan ianya memerlukan perubahan, dari segi pemakanan dan cara mendididik anak dan saya kira hanya memerlukan 3 generasi sahaja. Ini dapat saya lihat sendiri tentang cucu saya, ini setelah saya mengajar anak saya melalui program yg telah saya nyatakan di atas tadi, pada umur 9 tahun (cucu saya) dia dapat menulis esei sepanjang 5 mukasurat penuh. Eseinya hanyalah mengenai 'Mengapa saya gemarkan tomato! ' Selamat sejahtera dan semuga kita dapat melahirkan manusia yg bijak dan bersifat mulia untuk kebaikan manusia sejagat tanpa mengenal batasan bangsa.


Penulis : Dr. Stephen Carr Leon

Di alih bahasa oleh :Adibah Mohd NoorMatriculation Lecturer, Department of SciencesUIA Matriculation Centre, Petaling Jaya, Selangor.

(Bukan menyokong Hitler, tetapi hanya untuk membuka minda kita - Admin)

14 July 2010

morph any face you like!

Found this from somebody's blog when blogwalking yesterday. What a fun to try! (I tried my face with some popular figures.. ahahaha)


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13 July 2010

Learn, or be an ignorant. Choose only one please?

Since my last post was in spring, and the one before that was in winter, it seems that I am a seasonal blog writer eh? ;)

UK has been enjoying sunny spell for quite a while, but then what can you expect in this unpredicted-weather country. Yesterday and today appear to be gloomy rainy days. Sunny or rainy, I am grateful either way.

Also experiencing changes, are things and people that surround me. Positive changes are always welcomed, but negative ones are also inevitable. I see success, I also see failure. As in this academic world, I witness not only tears of happiness and satisfaction, but also tears of grief. Taking both into accounts, we can learn a lot. Mind you, 'we can' does not always mean that 'we do'. Because sometimes, people tend to deny or at least ignore the lessons, or might as well they do not really have the time to learn as they are too busy pointing finger at others.


I should get back to work now.. (owh no, my supervisor is knocking the door.. haha..)

23 April 2010

hey hey i miss my bed

It's been almost 3 months (or more?) since my last entry. Firstly, maaflah janji untuk mengupload gambar2 winter terpaksa tidak ditunaikan.. sebab rasanya dah tak relevant lagi as spring is now in the air..

Nothing much to write really. It's 6.17 am and I am still in the lab and haven't yet slept since yesterday. I had a can of Red Bull and that made me stay awake. Now I am having another cup of coffee to sustain the caffeine.. :p I know it's bad, but I am desperate. I have to make sure that I finish both poster and presentation slide for EGU conference in Vienna this Friday. We (Bob and me) are leaving tomorrow and I have to get this poster printed by today. Owh, and also not to forget that I'll have a meeting with Bob and Chris at 9.30 am.. that'll be 3 hours from now.

I will survive.. I hope I will.

10 January 2010

The surprise birthday party..

Semalam ialah hari lahir sy yang ke 27.. macam yg dh diberitahu pd post yg lepas. Ye, mengaku sajelah saya dah tak begitu muda.. ahahahah. Tapi tak bermakna sudah 27 takde orang nak buatkan surprise party.. :p Apapun, syukur pd Allah sebab masih lagi diberi kesempatan untuk bernafas di muka bumi Allah ni..
Sgt terharu dengan my housemates yg arranged kan makan2 untuk my birthday. Terima kasih sangat2 kepada Kak Shidah n Kak Yati dan semua tetamu2 yang datang. I had such a great time yesterday. Terasa sangat disayangi.. hihiii...
Thanks too to those yg wished me happy birthday, either by phones, text, cards etc. Termasuk juga kepada sesiapa yang sanggup tak cukup tidur untuk wish sy.. I really appreciate it.. :)
Dan yang paling penting, terima kasih yg berjuta2 lemon to mama dan ayah yang disayangi because without you, I will never be what I am now. Dan adik2 (termasuk Adik) yang disayangi, thanks for making my life so meaningful..
Owh ye, harini tak sempat nak share gambar2 waktu snow as promised in my previous entry. Esok ialah hari untuk my second year viva. Agak menakutkan. Harap2 semua baik2 saja, Ameeen..

Tetamu-tetamu yang datang..


Ini sumpahhh sangat sweettt okayy.. :D


Ada handmade cards lagi daripada Nurul and Ikhwan (anak kak ros)..


and the opened presents... Fazley n Shah pnye hadiah tak dapat dipaparkan kerana bakal menimbulkan kontroversi murahan.. hahaha..


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9 January 2010

my white birthday..


Notts has been covered by white blanket these few days, the thickest was yesterday and this morning. As I am 27 today, I will always remember that I have a white birthday this year... hehe. Owh ye, I'll share the pictures of the snowy Notts in my next post..

P/s : Thanks to both kak Shidah and kak yatii.. you guys rockkk! (To kak shidah, sy sgt suka frame itu.. cantikkk bangettt :D )

18 December 2009

bitterly cold..

It is so damn cold and I am no way near to finishing my works. Sounds negative? I know..

10 November 2009

kegiatan mengumpul calorie

Dua tiga hari ni saya makan sangatlah tidak teratur. Tak teratur tu bukan bermakna makan sikit ye, jangan salah sangka okeh.. haha. I've been skipping breakfast sebab bangun tidur pada waktu yang breakfast sudah tidak lagi relevan (haruss direjek oleh mak mertua ni perangai mcm ni), taking lunch at almost 3 everyday, having late dinner, and constantly snacking between those meals. Haa lagi satu, dah malam2 buta pukul 11-12 boleh lagi makan eskem & cheesecake tanpa rasa bersalah. Kalau berterusan macam ni memang berpotensi untuk melebar dengan lebih giat nampaknya, especially because of the constant snacking habbit. Ada2 je la yg nak dimasukkan dalam mulut.. kek la, crisp la, coklat la, biskut la.. nasib je pen/pensel/highlighter takleh tuka jadi candy ke apa ke kan..

Siang tadi my ex colleague Vera, came to submit her thesis. How I wish I were submitting mine... haha. Itu sangatlah tidak mengukur baju di badan sendiri kan.. research ntah kemana2 peginye, ada hati nak hantar sama taimmmm (time) dengan org yg dah 4 tahun bertapa kt sini. Tolong sedar diri ye cik efa.

So disebabkan Vera dah berjaya submit thesis dia, Bob dengan bermurah hati treated us lunch. Lepas lunch dan bergosip2 dengan jayanya, we had chit-chat over coffee and cakes. Sangatlah seronok kan berborak2 dan bergosip. Tak payah fikir dengan bersusah payah.

Ini memang namanya sehati sejiwa dengan supervisor.. baju siap match okayy.. haha!


Disebabkan dah lepas sorang lg student dia, lepas ni nampaknya encik Bob yang comel itu akan terlebih2 concern lagi lah kepada sorg studentnye yg kureng rajin ini. Ohohoho.. cepatlahh abess.. Ameeen.

23 October 2009

I lost my dearly loved aunt.. how sad... :(

Two days back, I heard from my father that my aunt (we called her 'Induk') was in coma. I was so shocked, not knowing the reason and had no idea if she had any serious illness before. Apparently she did not have any, apart from her high blood pressure. She always appeared to be very energetic, fit, happy go lucky and full of enthusiasm.

I then prayed to Allah to spare her life as we were all too afraid to lose her. Little did we know that Allah loves her more. Last night I called my father to ask about Induk's condition, then only I knew that she had gone the day before and had been buried. And I was totally stunned, refusing to believe what my ears had just caught. Then I heard my father sobbed and that was the moment when I realised it was not a dream.

I burst in to tears. My heart broke, I was sooo devastated, and I sympathised with my cousin (her only daughter named Zati), Pak Induk, and nenek. And my family ourselves, we love Induk so much. To my father, Induk was the one he loved the most among all my other aunts and uncles. She was the only aunt that me and my siblings loved so dearly, and we'll always do.

It is still fresh in my mind when we talked through the phone a day before hari raya.

"Induk masak apa raya? Mesti bestttttt kannnnn"

"Induk masak sikit2 je la kakngah.. ala kadar jee.."

"Elehh ye2 je Induk ni..saje la tu taknak kasi org tauuuu"

"Betulll.. induk tunggu kakngah balik la, nanti Induk masak banyak2, kite makan sama2 okay?"

"Okayy.. sayangg lahh Induk camni.."



And that would never ever gonna happen..

Since I heard the news, I could not help myself but crying. The loss left a big impact on me. My mind kept thinking about her.. she was so young when she left, not even 40. What would it feel like to be in Zati's position... where one day you wake up and you realise that your mother has left you. That must be too painful.

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah ibu dan ayahku untuk masa yang panjang... kerana aku masih lagi tidak kuat untuk kehilangan mereka..


Thanks for lending me your shoulder when I cried.......

18 October 2009

Mama, I am sick.. :(

Tak tau dah berapa belas jam saya tidur. Sejak pagi, tengahari, petang, dan sekarang malam. Sangat tak suka time2 demam macam ni. How I wish my mum is here.. :(

Esok ada meeting. Supervision meeting bersama Bob yg comel itu la. But I think I couldn't make it for tomorrow. Sebab paling utama, batuk yg teruk until I can barely speak properly without coughing. Itu sangatlahhhhh tak selesa okay! Rasanya tekak ni dah luka dah kot. Kasihan tekakkuu.. Dan lg satu, I do not want to come and spread the germs to other people.. (harap2 my housemates tak terjangkit).

Nak cancel meeting ke takk.. cancel ke tak... cancel ke takk... cancel ke takkk..

Hi Bob,

I am sorry that we have to cancel our meeting tomorrow. I have a fever, a runny nose and have been constantly coughing since Friday. The cough is terrible and gets worse every time I try to speak, which is very uncomfortable and doesn't get any better until now. I will see you when I get better.

Sorry!



Hmm okay, cancel!

p/s kpd yg berkenaan : mlm ini sy sudah mkn ubat.. :p