pervert!!

Sy sangat marah, geram dan sakit hati. Nafas dah turun naik, rasa nak menangis pun ada. :(

It was 11.20pm and I was in the bathroom, brushing and flossing my teeth when I heard somebody rang the bell. With curiosity, I went downstairs with Kak shidah. We decided to open the door but with the chain locked (thank God).

And there was this British (I think) guy, asking time.. "what's time now?"

"20 past 11", I said.

"Can you please unlock the door?" he insisted.

And we started thinking that there was something wrong with this guy. I immediately shut the door and asked him from inside.

"What do you want?"

"Please look through the window", he said.

And I went to the window as I thought he might wanna say or show something. And indeed, yes he was showing his penis. Damn pervert!!!!!!!!!

To the pervert, get a life! or at least get a hooker will u?

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Geram

I came to the library because I thought I need different environment to work in. It was peaceful until this Korean guy came and sit in front of me and then constantly having conversation thru mobile phone! Siap gelak2 manja lagi tu. Lain kali kalau nak berchenta sila keluar.

Marah btl la.

lack in look, rich in attitude

Just had a meeting about 20 minutes ago. Not much discussed, or nothing to share really.

Bob was wearing a camouflage trousers with a tucked in long sleeve blue-white stripe shirt. Formal for upper-half, informal for bottom half. No comment but I do think that he needs a personal image consultant.

He is a very nice guy, very helpful supervisor, very entertaining friend, very kind, and on and on and on, the list goes. Might lack the look (and style) but very rich in attitude. He has got everything a student need as a supervisor. To me he is a gift, and of course he is an exception as most supervisors just don't care that much about their students.

Last Wednesday when we were in a supervision meeting,

"Are you around on Friday?" I asked.

"Let's see if I have anything to do...", he said as he picked up his diary and checked the date. Usually he is around only if he has got meetings or classes to teach. Other stuff preferred to be done at home because less distraction, he told me once. "I don't have anything written here on my Friday...."

"Owh it's okay if you are not coming,.. ", I interrupted.

"No no no, there's always a yes. So what time do you wanna meet? 2pm meeting for a 2pm person I guess?", he asked before couldn't stop himself from laughing (sempat lg perli aku.. chaittt.. haha).

"2pm it is!", smiling whilst ignoring the irony.. :p

...........................

The other day when he was on holidays,


"Hey how are you doing?", he suddenly appeared at my door.

"Not bad, but heyy why are you here? Aren't you supposed to be on leave?"

"Sort of am, came to visit you! Got a minute? I have thoughts on what you sent me last nite"

He came just to share thoughts on the work I sent him night before.


I should be grateful, and thankful to Allah. For every single thing that happens in my life...

please please please... kamu jangan nakal..

Fallen for this song.. sgt comel dan sweet.. haha.





Semua tahu kamu cantik
Semua tahu kau menarik
Kau bidadari terhebat
Membuat cintaku makin kuat

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Chorus
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Ku pergi sebentar
Bukan untuk curang
Please please please
Kamu jangan nakal
Nanti aku datang
Bawa yang kau pesan

Diriku untukmu

Semua tahu kau milikku
Semua tahu ku cintamu
Ada pun yang memandangku
Betapa beruntungnya aku

Kadangkala ku cemburu buta
Saat ramai mata terpesona
Terlebih saat ku mahu pergi
Di saat itu kau ada di sini

Ulang Chorus

Bukan aku terlalu
Mengawal sikapmu
Ku hanya terlalu
Terlalu sayangi kamu
Ampunkan aku terlebih-lebih
Jagakan kamu
Ku cintamu
Kau cintaku

Ulang Chorus 3X

Diriku untukmu
Diriku untukmu

"Love VS Need" , "Wanted VS Needed"

Often I heard these two popular quotes:

"I love you because I need you"

"I need you because I love you"

At a glance, there is no obvious difference between those two. Both look similar and technically correct. But when we think a bit further (women do this, silly though!), we may find that they're different. At least philosophically. Women might want to hear the second one because there is no doubt it's the ideal one. The first one is not preferable by women but often said by men.

"Why do you love me?", one may ask.

"Because I need you", the other may answer.

I love you because I need somebody to make my breakfast, to do laundry, to wake me up, to prepare my lunch, dinner bla bla bla. Sounds selfish isn't it?

How about.. I love you because I need you to be by my side, and the need is of course because my love towards you. And I would not need somebody whom I don't love. Now it sounds ideal.

Now ladies, let's not being too rigid (this is for myself too, haha..) because everything in this world is true to some extent and false to some extent. Let's take an analogy of a half glass of water. Is it full? No. Is it empty? No. The truth is, it is both empty and full. 50% full and 50% empty. Hence the statement "the glass is full" is 50% correct and 50% false. And so with the statement "the glass is empty" - also 50% correct and 50% false. (ape kaitan??)

Sambung balik..

Then, what's the difference between "want" and "need"? I, if without a deep thought would prefer to be wanted, and not to be needed. Because again, that silly way of thinking which makes me feel that a "need" is a selfishness. But it actually is not true, I just realised. At least not 100% true, if we think through the fuzzy route.

Somebody said, "need is like oxygen in life, but want is like a cigarette. You need oxygen to survive but you need cigarette because you simply want to smoke", not exactly the same sentence, but more or less.

Nah! Now I want to be needed, not wanted. Because I want to be oxygen, not cigarette! And also, I guess I now have a new perception and would not be skeptical on the sentence "I love you because I need you" again.

p/s : Hari ini sy tidak pegi sekolah. Kesudahannya, kerja sy ialah merapu2... hahaha!

sedih.. sedih..

Tadi lepas hantar draft paper kat Bob rasa sangat lega. Kebetulan dia ada kat opis arini (walaupun sepatutnya on annual leave until 6th sept), so aku submit hardcopy je la. Lepas cokcekcokcek (atau pungpangpungpang) kejap, aku pun keluar dpd opis dia. Okeh, sudah settle satu benda.

Setengah jam lepas tu baru teringat ada satu soalan penting yg aku lupa nak tanya. Tapi ketuk2 pintu dah takde orang. Dah balik rumah la tu.

Then aku fikir nak tanya via email je. Lalu dengan harapan yang tinggi sikit daripada gunung Everest, aku pun hantar email kt Bob. Bayangkan la sket punya tinggi harapan gue.

Lepas berbalas2 6-7 email, keputusannya agak mengecewakan. Selambe je Bob tak kasi balik Mesia bulan doblas. Hah, kejamm... kejammmmmm!


*mengemas2 barang untuk balik umah sambil menyanyikan lagi Robek Hatiku*

hari ini sy ialah budak baik

[masih lagi berada di dalam mode 'saya']

Time now is 12.09am. Saya sudah mahu tidur. Jarang-jarang dapat menaip atas katil sebelum tidur dengan perasaan tenang macam ni. Harini ialah hari yang agak produktif (sebab tu lah rasa mcm baik :p ). Paper yg dah lama terbengkalai tu dah nak siap.. hoyehh. Intro, methods, results, analysis, discussion, conclusion all done. Tinggal lagi references yg berterabur sikit-sikit. Tapi rasanya esok siap dan dah boleh hantar dekat Bob. Bulan puasa ni tak banyak sangat distraction (setan pun kene ikat kan), takde la kejap2 nak pegi cafe, kejap2 nak berborak (sebab x cukup air liur), kejap2 nak mem'procrastinate' (still but kureng sikit). Kesimpulannya, harini sy sgt berpuas hati, Alhamdulillah.. dan semoga esok lebih baik insyaAllah.

Semoga Ramadhan kali ni membawa seribu kemanisan dalam hidup kita.. =)

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Lampu dah dipadamkan. Goodnite!