hey hey i miss my bed

It's been almost 3 months (or more?) since my last entry. Firstly, maaflah janji untuk mengupload gambar2 winter terpaksa tidak ditunaikan.. sebab rasanya dah tak relevant lagi as spring is now in the air..

Nothing much to write really. It's 6.17 am and I am still in the lab and haven't yet slept since yesterday. I had a can of Red Bull and that made me stay awake. Now I am having another cup of coffee to sustain the caffeine.. :p I know it's bad, but I am desperate. I have to make sure that I finish both poster and presentation slide for EGU conference in Vienna this Friday. We (Bob and me) are leaving tomorrow and I have to get this poster printed by today. Owh, and also not to forget that I'll have a meeting with Bob and Chris at 9.30 am.. that'll be 3 hours from now.

I will survive.. I hope I will.

The surprise birthday party..

Semalam ialah hari lahir sy yang ke 27.. macam yg dh diberitahu pd post yg lepas. Ye, mengaku sajelah saya dah tak begitu muda.. ahahahah. Tapi tak bermakna sudah 27 takde orang nak buatkan surprise party.. :p Apapun, syukur pd Allah sebab masih lagi diberi kesempatan untuk bernafas di muka bumi Allah ni..

Sgt terharu dengan my housemates yg arranged kan makan2 untuk my birthday. Terima kasih sangat2 kepada Kak Shidah n Kak Yati dan semua tetamu2 yang datang. I had such a great time yesterday. Terasa sangat disayangi.. hihiii...

Thanks too to those yg wished me happy birthday, either by phones, text, cards etc. Termasuk juga kepada sesiapa yang sanggup tak cukup tidur untuk wish sy.. I really appreciate it.. :)

Dan yang paling penting, terima kasih yg berjuta2 lemon to mama dan ayah yang disayangi because without you, I will never be what I am now. Dan adik2 (termasuk Adik) yang disayangi, thanks for making my life so meaningful..

Owh ye, harini tak sempat nak share gambar2 waktu snow as promised in my previous entry. Esok ialah hari untuk my second year viva. Agak menakutkan. Harap2 semua baik2 saja, Ameeen..

Tetamu-tetamu yang datang..

Ini sumpahhh sangat sweettt okayy.. :D

Ada handmade cards lagi daripada Nurul and Ikhwan (anak kak ros)..

and the opened presents... Fazley n Shah pnye hadiah tak dapat dipaparkan kerana bakal menimbulkan kontroversi murahan.. hahaha..

my white birthday..

Notts has been covered by white blanket these few days, the thickest was yesterday and this morning. As I am 27 today, I will always remember that I have a white birthday this year... hehe. Owh ye, I'll share the pictures of the snowy Notts in my next post..

P/s : Thanks to both kak Shidah and kak yatii.. you guys rockkk! (To kak shidah, sy sgt suka frame itu.. cantikkk bangettt :D )

bitterly cold..

It is so damn cold and I am no way near to finishing my works. Sounds negative? I know..

kegiatan mengumpul calorie

Dua tiga hari ni saya makan sangatlah tidak teratur. Tak teratur tu bukan bermakna makan sikit ye, jangan salah sangka okeh.. haha. I've been skipping breakfast sebab bangun tidur pada waktu yang breakfast sudah tidak lagi relevan (haruss direjek oleh mak mertua ni perangai mcm ni), taking lunch at almost 3 everyday, having late dinner, and constantly snacking between those meals. Haa lagi satu, dah malam2 buta pukul 11-12 boleh lagi makan eskem & cheesecake tanpa rasa bersalah. Kalau berterusan macam ni memang berpotensi untuk melebar dengan lebih giat nampaknya, especially because of the constant snacking habbit. Ada2 je la yg nak dimasukkan dalam mulut.. kek la, crisp la, coklat la, biskut la.. nasib je pen/pensel/highlighter takleh tuka jadi candy ke apa ke kan..

Siang tadi my ex colleague Vera, came to submit her thesis. How I wish I were submitting mine... haha. Itu sangatlah tidak mengukur baju di badan sendiri kan.. research ntah kemana2 peginye, ada hati nak hantar sama taimmmm (time) dengan org yg dah 4 tahun bertapa kt sini. Tolong sedar diri ye cik efa.

So disebabkan Vera dah berjaya submit thesis dia, Bob dengan bermurah hati treated us lunch. Lepas lunch dan bergosip2 dengan jayanya, we had chit-chat over coffee and cakes. Sangatlah seronok kan berborak2 dan bergosip. Tak payah fikir dengan bersusah payah.

Ini memang namanya sehati sejiwa dengan supervisor.. baju siap match okayy.. haha!

Disebabkan dah lepas sorang lg student dia, lepas ni nampaknya encik Bob yang comel itu akan terlebih2 concern lagi lah kepada sorg studentnye yg kureng rajin ini. Ohohoho.. cepatlahh abess.. Ameeen.

I lost my dearly loved aunt.. how sad... :(

Two days back, I heard from my father that my aunt (we called her 'Induk') was in coma. I was so shocked, not knowing the reason and had no idea if she had any serious illness before. Apparently she did not have any, apart from her high blood pressure. She always appeared to be very energetic, fit, happy go lucky and full of enthusiasm.

I then prayed to Allah to spare her life as we were all too afraid to lose her. Little did we know that Allah loves her more. Last night I called my father to ask about Induk's condition, then only I knew that she had gone the day before and had been buried. And I was totally stunned, refusing to believe what my ears had just caught. Then I heard my father sobbed and that was the moment when I realised it was not a dream.

I burst in to tears. My heart broke, I was sooo devastated, and I sympathised with my cousin (her only daughter named Zati), Pak Induk, and nenek. And my family ourselves, we love Induk so much. To my father, Induk was the one he loved the most among all my other aunts and uncles. She was the only aunt that me and my siblings loved so dearly, and we'll always do.

It is still fresh in my mind when we talked through the phone a day before hari raya.

"Induk masak apa raya? Mesti bestttttt kannnnn"

"Induk masak sikit2 je la kakngah.. ala kadar jee.."

"Elehh ye2 je Induk ni..saje la tu taknak kasi org tauuuu"

"Betulll.. induk tunggu kakngah balik la, nanti Induk masak banyak2, kite makan sama2 okay?"

"Okayy.. sayangg lahh Induk camni.."



And that would never ever gonna happen..

Since I heard the news, I could not help myself but crying. The loss left a big impact on me. My mind kept thinking about her.. she was so young when she left, not even 40. What would it feel like to be in Zati's position... where one day you wake up and you realise that your mother has left you. That must be too painful.

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah ibu dan ayahku untuk masa yang panjang... kerana aku masih lagi tidak kuat untuk kehilangan mereka..


Thanks for lending me your shoulder when I cried.......

Mama, I am sick.. :(

Tak tau dah berapa belas jam saya tidur. Sejak pagi, tengahari, petang, dan sekarang malam. Sangat tak suka time2 demam macam ni. How I wish my mum is here.. :(

Esok ada meeting. Supervision meeting bersama Bob yg comel itu la. But I think I couldn't make it for tomorrow. Sebab paling utama, batuk yg teruk until I can barely speak properly without coughing. Itu sangatlahhhhh tak selesa okay! Rasanya tekak ni dah luka dah kot. Kasihan tekakkuu.. Dan lg satu, I do not want to come and spread the germs to other people.. (harap2 my housemates tak terjangkit).

Nak cancel meeting ke takk.. cancel ke tak... cancel ke takk... cancel ke takkk..

Hi Bob,

I am sorry that we have to cancel our meeting tomorrow. I have a fever, a runny nose and have been constantly coughing since Friday. The cough is terrible and gets worse every time I try to speak, which is very uncomfortable and doesn't get any better until now. I will see you when I get better.

Sorry!


Hmm okay, cancel!

p/s kpd yg berkenaan : mlm ini sy sudah mkn ubat.. :p