I lost my dearly loved aunt.. how sad... :(

Two days back, I heard from my father that my aunt (we called her 'Induk') was in coma. I was so shocked, not knowing the reason and had no idea if she had any serious illness before. Apparently she did not have any, apart from her high blood pressure. She always appeared to be very energetic, fit, happy go lucky and full of enthusiasm.

I then prayed to Allah to spare her life as we were all too afraid to lose her. Little did we know that Allah loves her more. Last night I called my father to ask about Induk's condition, then only I knew that she had gone the day before and had been buried. And I was totally stunned, refusing to believe what my ears had just caught. Then I heard my father sobbed and that was the moment when I realised it was not a dream.

I burst in to tears. My heart broke, I was sooo devastated, and I sympathised with my cousin (her only daughter named Zati), Pak Induk, and nenek. And my family ourselves, we love Induk so much. To my father, Induk was the one he loved the most among all my other aunts and uncles. She was the only aunt that me and my siblings loved so dearly, and we'll always do.

It is still fresh in my mind when we talked through the phone a day before hari raya.

"Induk masak apa raya? Mesti bestttttt kannnnn"

"Induk masak sikit2 je la kakngah.. ala kadar jee.."

"Elehh ye2 je Induk ni..saje la tu taknak kasi org tauuuu"

"Betulll.. induk tunggu kakngah balik la, nanti Induk masak banyak2, kite makan sama2 okay?"

"Okayy.. sayangg lahh Induk camni.."



And that would never ever gonna happen..

Since I heard the news, I could not help myself but crying. The loss left a big impact on me. My mind kept thinking about her.. she was so young when she left, not even 40. What would it feel like to be in Zati's position... where one day you wake up and you realise that your mother has left you. That must be too painful.

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah ibu dan ayahku untuk masa yang panjang... kerana aku masih lagi tidak kuat untuk kehilangan mereka..


Thanks for lending me your shoulder when I cried.......