Cacat

Hari ni pukul 6.06 pagi dah habis waktu Subuh. Disebabkan terpaksa bangun dengan sangat awal, maka macam biasalah, lepas Subuh aku confirm sambung tidur (sedangkan kalau waktu subuh lewat pun aku macam tu).

Siangnya aku tak kemana. Sedikit rajin, aku masak untuk lunch. Masak lemak cili api telur dan kobis goreng kicap. Kalau nak dikirakan nisbah aku masak dengan Kak Shidah masak, rasanya 1:10. Sepuluh kali Kak Shidah masak, sekali aku masak. Nasib baik Kak Shidah tak kisah.

First Year Review sepatutnya dah berakhir 19 hb, Khamis lepas. Tapi internal examiner ada field work pulak, last minute notice. Disebabkan tu, review ditangguhkan lagi sampai 20 April. Aku diberi masa untuk hantar report paling lewat 19 hb March 4 petang. Memandangkan perangai aku yang terlalu suka berfoya2 ni, maka sekali lagi aku terpaksa menyiapkan report dengan cara pulun-sampai-nak-mati. 20 jam aku menaip report, tanpa berhenti kecuali untuk solat. Makan pun sambil menaip, mandi memang tak la. Sapa suruh buat kerja last minute, padan muka aku kan.

Dan report tu aku submit dengan sangat leganya hari Rabu pagi (18 March). Dah cek ala kadar sebelum hantar. Lepas hantar, aku tak tengok balik report tu. Dan baru sekejap tadi, bila aku check, rupa2nya diagrams numbering berterabur. Figure 1, 2, 3 dah ok... bila Figure 4, tiba2 labelled as Figure 2 pulak. Jadi, Fig 5 dah tertukar ke 3, Fig 6 tertukar ke 4,. and on and on it goes.

Aku dah tak tau nak cakap apa. Sebulan internal examiner akan pegang report aku. Kalau dia cek teliti-nak-mati, habislah!

Macamana kalau dia terus hilang mood untuk baca report aku?

Macamana kalau disebabkan messed up numbering tu, dia pandang aku macam orang yang buat kerja ala kadar? (aku buat last minute, tapi sumpah bukan ala kadar)

Macamana kalau dia tak baca pun report aku betul2, tapi disebabkan numbering tu, dia kata "Your report sux!" ???

Report tu cacat. Aku dah rasa macam nak nangis. Sangat takut kot ni. :(

pagi yang awal

Hari ini aku bangun awal. Pukul 5.30 pagi dah tersedar, tapi dok bergulung lagi bwah duvet sampai 6.15 am sebelum aku bangun solat. Dan aku tak tidur balik lepas subuh. Ajaib.

Cerita2 pasal cuti aku kiv dulu. Esok ada presentation untuk PhD Colloqium. Lepas tu ada meeting dengan Bob. (obviously ni lah sebabnya aku tak tido balik lepas subuh tadi)

Dua hari sekali meeting sampai la 19 March. Ngeri aku tunggu tarikh tu.

Harini dah janji taknak chatting dengan sapa2, taknak cek2 friendster, facebook, dan apa2 pun yang sewaktu dengannya.

Selamat berjaya kepada diri sendiri.

Christmas dinner

Smalam ada christmas dinner.. best la jugak.. hihii.. tu satu gamba je elok.. lain sume gamba goyang (tp bukan bermakne kite kepale tingtong malam itu okeh) :p Malam tu byk borak2 ngan Surge and Mike (dua2 ada dlm gamba tu).. tp topiknye sgt la bosan.. ada ke cite pasal ekonomi la.. politik la.. aisehh..

Baru lepas chatting ngan kak wani.. cite2 pasal dinner smalam. Ada ke kak wani igt kite ni bob pnye fav student? takde maknenye la kak.. hahaha.. bob ni msti slalu bengang ngan kite kot, tapi sebab dah kite ni student dia.. dia sabar je.. syg bob.. hahaha..

wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:06:37 AM): tuh bob suke tuh ye
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:06:38 AM): huhu
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:06:59 AM): ala.. bob tu mana la ada suka kak
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:04 AM): tp dah sy ni student dia
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:10 AM): dia terpaksa la suka jugak
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:07:13 AM): hehe
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:07:51 AM): takk..
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:07:59 AM): zaifa ni fav student dia
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:11 AM): hahahaha
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:13 AM): akk ni aihhh
kalium_gurl (12/13/2008 11:08:19 AM): apsal akk kata cmtu?
wanie pearl (12/13/2008 11:09:20 AM): tgk aje dah tau laaa zaifa

(jgn gelakkan my ym id okeh.. tu id sejak skolah2 tu.. hihii )

Owh patutlah.. aritu Stella perli Bob.. suruh Bob reserve kan satu desk kat ofis dia tu kasi kite dok satu opis je ngan dia.. hahaha. Adekah agaknye sume org pasan yg Bob tu 'sayang' kite ni? Muahaha.. sgt klaka! Patutlah jugak.. Mike cakap camni "she's a star student, excels in everything so far!" masa kenalkan kite kat post-doc staff yg baru, Amer. Tu takde lain la tu.. mesti Bob yg punye cite.. "Zaifa has done this.. zaifa has done that.. " aiyoooo padahal mende2 tu punyelah sikit, dah la tu banyaknye buat sama2 dgn Bob.. dia ni suke promote kite la. Terasa malu sendirik sbb tak betul langsungg apa yg dia cakap tu. Cmana kalau pasni tak berjaya buat macam2? Haa tak ke malukan diri sendiri dan malukan Bob je tu? Huaaaa...

Igt dlu masa my abstract had been accepted for the Chile conference.. dia pegi bgtau Mike sume.. Mike ni director of the research centre la, so Mike ni forward la email kat orang2 lain.. adoii.. tibe2 esoknye sume ckp Congrats.. haa tu baru abstract tu, lum lagi paper.. hahahaha.. klaka kan.

Habis cite Bob.

Suhu skarang dh makin sejuk.. kite rasa kalau kene tinggal kt luar tu without coat malam2.. pagi tu mesti dah jd arwah kot.. tak pun nyawa2 ikan.. hehe.

Kite been bz writing report.. tp mcm x abis2.. dah type sikit, dok cek emel la chatting la.. aihh. Kan best kalau kite ni sentiasa ada momentum utk study kan? Tak payah la paksa2 diri.. and x payah rasa terpaksa bile kene study... hihii.

Lagi best jugak kalau dalam dunia ni mmg 'study' and 'keje' tu tak wujud.. sume org sentiasa berehat2.. wahh heaven btl.. hahaha.. :p

p/s : zatil, ada macam tepung gomak tak bedak revlon tu?

tiring day

I am so tired. The whole day I've been evaluating undergrad students' presentation, in a crowded hall.. asking nasty questions to them, reading the posters with loadsssss of text.. and then I missed my Maghrib. Good.

And everybody was too lazy (including me) to cook for dinner, and we againnn ordered the take-away. I was hungry but I didn't finish my meal. I wanted, but I couldn't.

And I am so sleepy now, but I cannot sleep. My mind keeps thinking about something. Tibe2 rasa macam nak lempang orang. I better off now.

What do I feel?

It's 12 pm.. and I have just had a chat with Bob, the quick one. Well.. 30-minute-chat is considered short if it's with Bob.. he's got loads of ideas! So now we do have some plans for the EGU conference in Vienna. Bob said that the main point is to put my name somewhere and to make my potential external examiner recognise me.

He is such a great supervisor. He does everything he could to help me. At some points I really feel bad that I don't give the full swing. I delay my works, I ignore his words sometimes (how bad I am).. :(

And what he said yesterday made me feel even worse..

"You're far different from the others"

"How do I differ? " (I was expecting something bad..)

"You're good, you always put your mind thru.. and that's impressive!"


I feel bad :(... because I'm not that good. At least not as good as he thinks. Hmm.. I don't want to let him down one day. No!

don't you see i'm working so damn hard Bob?

It's almost 4 o'clock dah... ngantuk jugak mata aku ni haa..

Kak Yati dah bangun... dia nk gi France, for the research matter.. konon2 td aku stay awake ni sebab sambil2 nak tunggu untuk kejut kak yati la.. takut dia terlepas flight plak pagi karang.. tpnye skang ni tetibe mata ni dah macam x ngantuk plak..


Aku tak cek emel uni dah 3 hari.. skalinye tadi cek2 ada 6 emel Bob.. huaa Bob ni kot ye pun kasi la aku berehat2 time wiken kan.. kijam betul. Disebabkan emel itu ler aku kelam kabut jugak sebenarnye.. ada mende nk kene deliver.. semestinye untuk tujuan menghentam paper org lain lagi.. ahahah.. so noti!


Aku kene settlekan ada some equations.. pstu kitorg (Bob, me and Jerry) nk publish discussion paper lagik.. hahaha.. this is the 2nd time we make people hate us! Yg 1st discussion paper tu dah submit.. cuma belum publish lagi.. i wonder what the response would be..

Last time we attacked the Turkish hydrologists.. and this time another 4 Turkish would be surprised! I surely hate Bob et al (2008) paper if I were them! hahaha.. :p