I lost my dearly loved aunt.. how sad... :(

Two days back, I heard from my father that my aunt (we called her 'Induk') was in coma. I was so shocked, not knowing the reason and had no idea if she had any serious illness before. Apparently she did not have any, apart from her high blood pressure. She always appeared to be very energetic, fit, happy go lucky and full of enthusiasm.

I then prayed to Allah to spare her life as we were all too afraid to lose her. Little did we know that Allah loves her more. Last night I called my father to ask about Induk's condition, then only I knew that she had gone the day before and had been buried. And I was totally stunned, refusing to believe what my ears had just caught. Then I heard my father sobbed and that was the moment when I realised it was not a dream.

I burst in to tears. My heart broke, I was sooo devastated, and I sympathised with my cousin (her only daughter named Zati), Pak Induk, and nenek. And my family ourselves, we love Induk so much. To my father, Induk was the one he loved the most among all my other aunts and uncles. She was the only aunt that me and my siblings loved so dearly, and we'll always do.

It is still fresh in my mind when we talked through the phone a day before hari raya.

"Induk masak apa raya? Mesti bestttttt kannnnn"

"Induk masak sikit2 je la kakngah.. ala kadar jee.."

"Elehh ye2 je Induk ni..saje la tu taknak kasi org tauuuu"

"Betulll.. induk tunggu kakngah balik la, nanti Induk masak banyak2, kite makan sama2 okay?"

"Okayy.. sayangg lahh Induk camni.."



And that would never ever gonna happen..

Since I heard the news, I could not help myself but crying. The loss left a big impact on me. My mind kept thinking about her.. she was so young when she left, not even 40. What would it feel like to be in Zati's position... where one day you wake up and you realise that your mother has left you. That must be too painful.

Ya Allah, pinjamkanlah ibu dan ayahku untuk masa yang panjang... kerana aku masih lagi tidak kuat untuk kehilangan mereka..


Thanks for lending me your shoulder when I cried.......

Mama, I am sick.. :(

Tak tau dah berapa belas jam saya tidur. Sejak pagi, tengahari, petang, dan sekarang malam. Sangat tak suka time2 demam macam ni. How I wish my mum is here.. :(

Esok ada meeting. Supervision meeting bersama Bob yg comel itu la. But I think I couldn't make it for tomorrow. Sebab paling utama, batuk yg teruk until I can barely speak properly without coughing. Itu sangatlahhhhh tak selesa okay! Rasanya tekak ni dah luka dah kot. Kasihan tekakkuu.. Dan lg satu, I do not want to come and spread the germs to other people.. (harap2 my housemates tak terjangkit).

Nak cancel meeting ke takk.. cancel ke tak... cancel ke takk... cancel ke takkk..

Hi Bob,

I am sorry that we have to cancel our meeting tomorrow. I have a fever, a runny nose and have been constantly coughing since Friday. The cough is terrible and gets worse every time I try to speak, which is very uncomfortable and doesn't get any better until now. I will see you when I get better.

Sorry!


Hmm okay, cancel!

p/s kpd yg berkenaan : mlm ini sy sudah mkn ubat.. :p

my cookies

Last Saturday I tried this recipe from youtube, by Nigella Lawson. Saje2 nk try buat cookies. Sangat sedap lah jugak. This is the video if u guys wanna try!



And ini dia cookies sebelum dimasukkan ke dalam oven.. jangan komen saiz yang tidak sama itu okeh.. :p


Ini yg dah siap.. yummy!! Kaler dia sangat gelap sbb I used dark choc for both the choc bar and choc chip..

ucapan yang terlewat - slamat hari raya!

Ni dah x tau raya keberapa dah ni, baru nak wish slamat hari raya kan.. haha. Slamat hari raya kawan2, korang semua raya dah best2 dah.. lemang, ketupat, rendang, kuih raya, dodol.. iskk.. sgt jeles okeh. Tapi raya aku aritu ok jugak la, ada rendang, ada kuah kacang, ada nasik himpit. Kire dah menu raya la tu kan.. :p Baju raya pun ada, fmly poskan.. kakteh plak tu yg jahit. (jangan tanya apsal aku x pandai jahit sndiri ye).

Haritu sebelum raya, ada jugak aku dpt beberapa kad raya dpd kawan2 n fmly kt Mesia (fmly aku mmg kt mesia je ada :p). Thanks kepada sesapa yang kasi kad raya tu eh, korang sume sgt la best. And minta maaflah tak ada kad raya balasan... sini takde kad raya.. hehe. Lain kali i'll send postcards tu u guys..

Dalam banyak2 kad raya, ada satu yg ada lagu raya. Kad daripada ayahanda terchenta la tu. Siap tulis ayat2 syahdu lg tu. Well.. that's my father, memang sungguh sentimental.. hehe. Pagi2 raya tu siap nangis lg. Mama cool je la.. rock katekan..

Haa inilah dia ucapan dlm kad raya yg sentimental itu.

Ni plak baju raya yang my lil sis jahitkan.. kagum betul. Thanks ye budak busuk.. :p

Yang lain2 ni ialah gamba2 hari raya pertama. Untuk kakteh, ni bukti org pakai baju raya tu.. jangan ingat org tak pakai tauu. Gambar2 raya yg lain akan di update kemudian..


Owh ye, terima kasih jugak untuk orang yang tolong makankan (makan on behalf of me :p ) juadah2 hari raya haritu. Patut ler kenyanggg gile kt UK ni haa.. :p

;)